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Part of me wishes I would have taken her pictures at the end of August. I had considered it, briefly. But I thought, nah I have time. I even thought, well, no problem, she's letting it all heal, at the beginning of October. I figured by the end of October I'd be able to take her 2 year .pictures. Scars didn't matter to me, at all.
What does matter to me? Big, bloody wounds and sores.
Yes, she's scratching and rubbing and picking again. The two main things I worried about were her eyes and scarring. Now that it seems her eyes are fine and she's not digging at them anymore, and the scarring is permanent, I'm not worried anymore. I am angry though.
I'm angry because she had been letting everything heal up nicely. Every time we tell her no or scold her for something, she rubs and picks. Naturally the more she does that, the more sore and itchy the wounds get and the more she digs at them.
Did I mention she rips her hair out by the fist fulls at the same time and for the same reason? Yeah.
It's all very irritating and there are days when I feel like spanking her bottom.
The funny (ironic, not haha) thing is is that she's only hurting herself, both now and in the long run, by doing these things. I wish there was a way to make her understand that. Being an obnoxious two year old, as she is, makes that impossible. So I watch as she mutilates her face and head, the whole time thinking I should video tape it so she can see just what a brat she was and how hard it was to stop her.
Because I know she's going to blame me for this.
As for her two year pictures; I think I did the best I'm going to be able to do.
This was taken over the weekend.
Todd had to sit and hold her down. She refused to smiled or hold still. She is definitely being every bit the terrible two year old right now. It's unbelievably frustrating but I hold on to the knowledge that this too shall pass and things will get better with her face scratching and hair pulling as well as the terrible twos.
Will she ever be free of scratching? No, but I'm confident that history will repeat itself and she'll move on to other areas. Of course then I'll have to worry most about infection. This life is what it is and there is no escape.
This post has been cross posted from Jen's blog, Different But Determined. To read more about the family's experience with Hereditary Sensory Autonomic Neuropathy and "Itching", click here.
