Today was a pretty ok day. I went over my calories a bit. We went to a birthday party for a friends son. I ate 3 slices of pizza! Yea, not too proud of myself. I also enjoyed a grande light mocha frap :-(.I hadn't gotten a chance to eat all day so when I did eat I kinda gorged. I have however, made it to my original goal of 130 lbs today! I made a new goal of 125. I figure what is 5 more lbs right!

I have had a rough week diet wise. Family has been in town, whenever my dad visits he loves to cook for us kids. Therefore, lots of carbs. I did use healthy substitutes like sugar free syrup for his pancakes, or I just ate smaller portions. Sometimes I am so proud of my newfound consciousness of the things I allow enter my body. Other times I feel as though it is a burden because I know too much and I guilt myself for doing badly even a little. :-( It is a lifestyle change and I need to realize I will falter from time to time. I think the fear of gaining back all 42lbs is just sitting in the back of my mind. I love my new body. There are things I would still like to fix, but that is going to take more time.

It is all about baby steps as they say. I need to realize sometimes I can enjoy some things, but to try not to return to old habits. If I do, well I will just gain the weight back and have to fight twice as hard to get it off and keep it off. If you have lost a bit of weight how do you keep it off? I don't know if anyone is reading this , but I would appreciate any responses.

xoxo Nell