30 Weeks Post Chemo - Dreams
By chiagal on August 24, 2011
Dreams can be so deceiving sometimes!! I spent the better part of my rem cycle last night thanking God because I miraculously had hair down to my chin again. I used a flat iron on my curls and when they were completely straight, they extended down to almost reach my chin. I know my hair is really curly, but to honestly believe I had 8 inches of hair curled up on the top of my head right now…..that’s just silly.
Imagine my surprise, and disappointment, when I awoke this morning to find I still have a frizzy, curly, fro as my current hair style. That’s the thing about dreams….they seem so real when you are in the moment. For the longest time I thought this whole cancer situation was a bad dream I was having a hard time waking up from. As the months went on I slowly learned that it wasn’t the nightmare I was willing it to be, it was good old fashion denial. And much like I had to accept that cancer was a reality for me, I had to face the mirror this morning knowing I still have a Richard Simons fro……and it sucks!!
As frustrating as that was this morning, there are plenty of things to be excited about this week!!
First, I found out this week that my brother is moving to Charlotte. It will be very exciting to have some family in town.
Second, I have my first post cancer mammogram on Wednesday. Not sure what’s so exciting about that…but it’s another milestone to check off. And the thing about cancer is that it’s all about the baby steps. If you try to take it on in leaps and bounds, you get overwhelmed really quickly. So this first mammogram is another baby step away from my cancer days.
I unfortunately don’t get my mammogram results until the 20th, so you won’t get an update on that for a few weeks.
Third, I am finally down to my pre-cancer weight again…woooooooooooooooooooo hooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!! It feels sooooooooooo good. I can’t begin to put it into words, so I’m not even going to try!!
Fourth…I’m going to preface this with the fact that I find no excitement in this, but know there are multiple people who read this and will be very excited…as such I will be including it in this list. I bit the bullet and started taking my tamoxifen pills on June 1st. I’m 6 days in and haven’t experienced any side effects yet…so I guess it is exciting after all!
Finally, and the most exciting in my personal opinion, I’m heading to Vegas with some girlfriends on Thursday for my post cancer, cancer sucks big fat hairy balls trip!! I’m really looking forward to a long weekend of pool time, cocktails, dressing up in slutty pretty dresses, and spending quality time with some of the greatest friends a girl could ask for :)
So with that, this week’s blog is going to be pretty short. I’ve got a lot of packing to do….because yes, girls do start packing days in advance when they are super excited about something! Photos from 30 weeks post chemo are below…