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Today I went to the doctor--again. I had to have my arm poked at--again. I have gotten used to it. I wake up and go to the doctor and don't even think about eating because any possible bloodwork they will want to perform is based off of fasting insulin. This is my tenth year of these types of tests. Why, you ask, do I have to go to the doctor so often? Well, you know that particular time of the month when you feel grouchy and mild to severely painful cramping in your lower abdomen? When you wish you could just curl up in your bed and eat chocolates and pizza all day? When you know that if you don't have any panty liners or tampons on you, you are pretty much out of luck? Yeah--lucky me, I really don't have to worry about those--much. I've had a period--just never regular. This last interval between my periods was three years, two months, and a couple days. Crazy? Perhaps, but it's what I'm used to by now.
When I turned 18, I was diagnosed with premature ovarian failure (POF) which is a rare occurrence for anyone under the age of 35--well, guess what? I had a very, very rare case. A couple doctors could attribute my lack of menses to a "premature menopause" due to a congenital defect within my ovaries. Oddly enough, this never made sense to me--yes, I have small ovaries, but aren't they supposed to be small? And they have worked before--just on a sporadic schedule that not even a highly skilled mathematician would be able to calculate.
Today, my whole story is getting flipped around. I have been "undiagnosed." I have bigger things to worry about, such as lupus and my liver shutting down on me. Right now, I haven't the faintest idea what could be "wrong" with my body--I just know that the everlasting fatigue I've felt since..well, my whole life is something I've gotten used to. If they could erase that and make me energetic and healthy, I would be all for it! But for now, I am going to go--I will update you all in the next couple weeks to let you know how my fight to find the right endocrinologist goes and how my insurance IS going to cover it or else...grr!
Thanks for the support and have a blessed, veggie megitated day!
