Another Day Down
The problem with trying to only consume a certain number of calories is that it's so dang easy to cheat or to miscalculate or to take a few bites here and a few bites there. It's so dang easy for those numbers to just add up. I suppose this is also why it's also good to count calories. Before this process, I really had no idea how many calories were in each thing.
I know that the packaging information is on oodles of things, but the impact of just how many calories those things represent doesn't really hit home till one tries living off a set number that is woefully small.
I suppose it's a bit like living in a big house or a small house. In the big house, it's easy to stash away extra sets of linens and cool future projects and odds and ends, but in the small house, there isn't always room for anything extra.
Hmmm. I rather like the large house scenario with its spacious cabinets and walk in closets and upstairs rooms and downstairs rooms. But, somehow I don't think this analogy quite applies to my body. I think I just took all those cool things and found places to stuff them (literally) and on my shorter frame, they didn't look tall and elegant and Ikean, but rather squat and rotund and crowded and fat.
So....dang it all. I still find myself thinking, "I can just have an extra rice ball". Heck - my stomach stretched out for two pregnancies - obviously there's plenty of room.
No no no. That's not what I want. I want a clean airy solid house where I have what I need, can do what I want and can enjoy some leg room and this is why I am counting calories - and at the same time trying to get rid of things.
I don't know how good I'm doing at getting rid of things. It's all a process. A slow one, but it will continue.
I made it through today okay calorie wise. I went on the elliptical for 20 minutes this morning but then stopped because me knee started to really hurt. I'm going to take tomorrow morning off and try to sleep in (till seven) and fend off this cold and sore throat. Maybe I'll go out walking at lunch or do some pilates at home. Who knows. The big task is just not to eat more than I'm allocated! My it is hard and boringly unfun.