I've been trying to figure out what my goal here is and I don't think I really have one. I don't have a shrink so this may just be my alternate mental health outlet. I'll see how much I get out of saying 'and how does that make you feel' to myself.
I am currently wrestling with a couple of big issues: The first one is that I'm 35 and single and my biological clock sounds like Big Ben in my head. With no relationship prospects anywhere near the horizon I think I may have to have a baby alone. The concept is not terrifying but the logistics are. How would I afford it? Is it possible to do it without anyone to help? I see my coupled mum friends struggling enough and there are two of them to share the load. I gave myself until the end of the year to find someone or I was headed to the sperm bank, now as December looms ahead I am getting more nervous about that decision.
I'll leave the second issue until next time. There can only be so much wingeing per day.