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Own Your Beauty is a groundbreaking, year-long movement bringing women together to change the conversation about what beauty means. Our mission: to encourage and remind grown women that it is never too late to learn to love one's self and influence the lives of those around us - our mothers, friends, children, neighbors. We can shift our minds and hearts and change the path we follow in the pursuit of authentic beauty.
They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Beauty, like taste, is subjective. Yes, we tell ourselves that with our rational brains, yet our own psyches make us think differently. Images of Catherine, Sophia, Cindy, Salma, and Jennifer pop up at every turn, taunting us with a twisted version of reality. And now we are bombarded with Kate's winsome beauty, making us all dream of marrying a prince.
After a while, women start to feel insecure, frumpy, unworthy. At least I do. Women are expected to have taut abs, perky breasts, chiseled cheek bones, silky hair, and gams that make you go ooh. The glossies define beauty these days, leaving us with an unattainable and unrealistic view of what it means to be beautiful. We don't walk around with the magic of airbrushing ourselves through other people's lenses. We don't all have a personal trainer, stylist, make up artist, cook, manicurist, facialist, brow waxer on the clock. We don't all get paid to be pretty.
What is it to be pretty anyway? Is it the same as being cute? Hot? Lovely? Is it enough to be attractive? Is it even important to be pretty? And by whose standards?
I've lived my entire life as a misfit. I never fancied myself beautiful. I never even considered myself attractive. I didn't consider myself an ugly duckling, but worse, I rendered myself invisible, inconsequential. I never fit in. I never had boys clamoring at my locker. I never was the girl who was surrounded by boys at the club. I never drew attention. I never looked the part.
When I was quite young, I knew I didn't fit in. I knew that my looks would not be considered "pretty." I knew that brown skin was a black mark in the beauty department. While my friends rubbed baby oil on their bikini-clad bodies and laid out in the sun, attracting ogles and catcalls, I sat shrouded in long sleeves and hats, with a towel covering my legs. To this day I don't want the sun to leave its mark on me. I used to tell people that my black black hair was actually really dark brown. I didn't want to be the only girl in school with black hair. I bleached a blond stripe into my hair in high school, a wannabe Alexandra of Josie and the Pussycats fame. I shut out my heritage in an effort to be more like them. The popular girls. The pretty girls. I shudder to think how much energy I spent trying to be something I was not.
Where I grew up, Indian girls were not in the popular crew. Blond hair and blue eyes made a girl pretty. I recently looked at my high school graduation photo. When I showed it to Bird and Deal, they both remarked, "Mommy, you are the only brown-skinned kid in your class." Indeed I was. Some things never change. When I moved to the Midwest in my 20s, it was more of the same. All my blond friends got attention from the guys while I stood and sipped my drink alone or hovered near one flirty couple or another. When a guy nudged me to get my attention, it was always to ask if one of my friends was single. I was never the subject of anyone's dreams. It wasn't even a matter of not being pretty enough; I simply wasn't pretty.
Now don't think I was a shrinking violet who thought herself destined to be a wallflower. I suppose I resigned myself to be a sidekick and was fine with that. I was Velma to every Daphne. No one told me otherwise. I
