Excitement builds as my trip to discover my own adventurous spirit and independence looms. This is not a typical vacation; this is an adventure to experience the winter activities of Alaska. There are probably few people that would choose a winter vacation to Alaska over a relaxing trip to the beaches of Hawaii, but this trip has a purpose.

After 29 years of Rheumatoid Arthritis, having both hips and knees replaced, dealing with pain medications and depression I had an epiphany. I needed to prove to myself that although I am disabled I am capable of so many things and I deserve to give myself the opportunity to go out and try something new.

I was not sure how to do this but I knew it had to be adventurous, uncharacteristic of me and something that would help build my confidence. The first thing I thought of was: Becoming an Outdoor Woman, (BOW). My sister had invited me two years ago to participate in a BOW workshop, a weekend program geared for women to try their hand at outdoor activities. I had declined as I my self preservation mode kicked in and fear of causing myself pain by possibly slipping on the ice would not make it worth it. I am a different person now, at least I want to be and this will take more than just written words it takes action.

So early next year I will pack my bags for a weekend adventure in Alaska where I will experience outdoor activities ranging from ski-jouring to ice fishing. This is the first step to finding my adventurous spirit, claiming my independence, and building my confidence to live life and face my fears.

I hope by living out this adventure I become more confident to take risks I once thought impossible an empower others to find their adventurous spirit regardless of physical ability.