Why have I not blogged for so long? Couple odf days after my last post I found out i was pregnant. My Mum was staying and she is one of these people who cannot let you do something without watching over you. Even though I am 37 years old, she has to watch me vacuum, cook, do my work online - it is tremendously irritating. Then I did not want to tell anyone of the pregnancy until I got the all clear. On Monday 2 weeks ago I lost some blood, I was 9 weeks pg. Went to the doctor, had a scan, no heartbeat detected.

I am still settling into my new career of 'wife and mother' and not doing too badly. Stil unsure what time of day is the best to blog as I have found - you can see - I missed a few days due to thinking 'I will do it when I can. A strange mixture of problems but problems being solved, changes happening lately around here.

Embarked afresh today on a search for my ex husband for legal stuff that needs tying up.

Had a BIG meeting yesterday with social services, mental health, school, all together. THey agree all is not well with my son, in as much as his behaviour falls outside the range of 'normal'. I feel relieved that I have been told they should have a diagnosis in 6 weeks time. At least I will be able to tell people something when they are giving us funny looks when I have to hold him and talk to him, when he tries to run off or start kicking out when he panics.

I have now been to two yoga classes in two days. This is helping me so much, I knew all along it is what I needed. The calmness of mind that I get through yoga doesn't come to me so easily when I am not practising yoga. I would rather this than be struggling, people suggesting that to cope with my son I need to see a counsellor or take antidepresants. I have the energy to deal with his unusual ways, because I do something many people think is odd, yoga in a 110 fahrenheit room.