I don't know when it started to happen, but about a month ago I was feeling upset and tired, mixture of things really. I blurted out to my husband that i was fed up of always being at the bottom of the pecking order. I know what prompted it at the time, but me actually saying that was a bolt from the blue, I am not that kind of person. what happened is that i was getting our toddler off to sleep and he came into the bedroom.

Well the meal planner is printed for the next month, the 'sin bin' is by the front door. That is a bag which contains all the toys left strewn about in inappropriate places. I read one book suggesting that children complete one chore in order to earn back such items. ok. My kids would be doing chores until they are ready to go to university!

At the end of the day I am going to write a list of all the things I have DONE, a 'done list' rather than starting the day with a to do list. When we have a to-do-list we often set ourselves up for a fall, or have unrealistic expectations of ourselves. I am going to make myself a cup of tea later and congratulate myself on what i have done today rather than worry about what I have not done.

Since 2002 I have been back to college to study psychology, worked in a nightclub, been a volunteer worker, set up and closed down a small business, sat med school entrance exam (only just missed getting the right score due to having been hospitalised with a mystery virus just days before), applied to do an M.A.

right i am back! can't believe i left it so long. And guess what? Since the last post all that time ago i have had a gorgeous baby girl, on 2nd october 2008, and for now at least am a stop at home mum. things are progressing with my son who has at last been referred to a neurologist. Baby must be fed so this is brief.