Bubble Tea: My Addiction

So I have to admit that from the first time that I ever visited San Diego (Back in 2002) I had my first Boba Bubble Tea.  It was in the Asian section that I was taken to by a guy that I was dating at the time.  I was immediately ...more

How Did You Know?

One of the most asked questions after coming out as an alcoholic was, “how did know you were an alcoholic,” and specifically, what separates an alcoholic from being a heavy drinker?  I found a helpful article from Psychology Today that explains the differences.  I reviewed the list and can identify with fifteen out of the twenty....more

Addiction in the Family: Understanding Treatment

The first time I found out that a favorite cousin of mine was addicted to cocaine, I didn't know what to think. Should I be upset? Disappointed? What was I supposed to do?At first, I was sort of glad he was staying abroad in Georgia. It meant that I didn't have to deal with him directly. "Out of sight, out of mind," or so they say. But I found out the hard way that when you realize how someone you care deeply for is suffering with addiction, it can be a very overwhelming feeling. I've learned a lot ever since (it's been about three years since I found out) and I was hoping to share insights and perhaps get some from you as well.At the time, the best thing I did for my cousin was to be there to offer my love and support. After my initial shock, I realized that there was one way I could deal with it effectively: How would I feel - and what would I need from my loved ones - if I was the one who had an addiction problem?Answering that question led to answers. I also knew that to understand addiction, I should be able to understand the many treatment options. Addiction is a very complicated illness that will require several types of treatment, after all....more

I Would Rather Grow Old Alone Than Settle for Less

"You must learn to love yourself before you can truly love another."We've all heard these words of wisdom, but that never made any sense to me.  Love myself? Sure, I'm great. I dig me. So why did I suck at dating? What was it I wasn't getting? I was never a big dater when I was drinking.  I was terrified of having my heart broken again like it had been in 2005 from a boyfriend who didn’t turn out to be what he advertised.  And as my disease manifested itself, I lost all interest in men.  ...more

Flash Fiction: I Used To Dream About You Dying

There are some dreams you shouldn't tell people about. This is one of them....more

From the Trenches of Alcoholism

Alcoholism sucks. I know I'm not speaking from direct experience, but as one with a ring side seat, let me assure you that is absolutely awful. I can tell now. I know what to look for. And that fact alone has been hard won. It's come from emergency gallbladder surgery two years ago....more

There be dragons here

What did you do, my girl? Was it the fireworks?I’ve seen them exploding and I can only imagine how hot it gets closer to the sparks....more

This is your brain OFF sugar

I'm addicted to sugar. There. I said it.Not that I need a candy bar every day or a donut every month, but I need to have some sweetness in my coffee (the high-fat flavored fake creamer is my fave!) and some form of dessert every night - even if it's just a piece of chocolate. My husband has a random sweet tooth but eats things like ice cream and Oreos rather than dark chocolate or Godiva's creme brulee truffles, so I can usually avoid his goodies if they're out of my sight. But watch out if I run out of MY sweets....more

RSAT Group Outside For 3 Hours In Freezing Temps.

RSAT Group Outside For 3 Hours In Freezing Temps.They had to stand outside in freezing temperatures for the store.RSAT is the jail re-hab, but this is crazy! ...more

Satisfying the Tummy

I think its great that living in the 21st Century means readily accessibility to just about any cuisine anywhere. I seriously can tour the world with my stomach within two miles from my workplace.I can also gain a lot of weight very quickly....more