Where Will The Energy Come From?

I feel very inadequate today.  I don’t know where I’m going to find the energy to fight for my son in the way that he needs and deserves to be fought for.  When we finally took him in to see a doctor late last year, it was the beginning of a steep uphill battle with agencies and medical providers that I faced with all of the might and tenacity that I could summon.  It was months and months of phone calls and forms and meetings and trips to the doctor’s office and the ER and the psychologists…  Months and months of not being heard until finally I asked a therapist in comp...more

In The Beginning, There Was Bliss... Bwhaaa!!!!

When we last heard from our fearless hero, she was running a business, going to school, living the blissful married life and basking in the glow of motherhood.  I can’t recall exactly the day that this beautiful picture began to show cracks, or if they were always there, just too small to acknowledge.  All I do know is that the picture that I had pinned everything on, the hope for our domestic nirvana, was shattered and now we’re picking up the broken pieces and trying to patch together a new masterpiece for our future.  Except this picture is more deconstruction and less fin...more

The Autism Chronicles

If you know me then you know that I am more than a tarot enthusiast.  I am a mom to a little boy who falls somewhere on the autism spectrum.  The fireman, as I call him, is an amazing 5 year old with a photographic memory, a charming smile and goofy spirit, a compassionate streak that rivals any monk I’ve ever met (I suppose, not that I’ve ever met any monks…) and some quirky developmental disorders that make him extremely sensitive to outside stimulus....more

I Am All of These Things

Someone asked me recently why I don’t write more about my son who has Aspergers.  The day to day struggles must get you down, she said.  Writing is cathartic, she said.  Everyone who has a child on the Autism Spectrum writes about it, a lot, she said....more

Reducing the meds....First time ever!

We have had some really rough spots with the boys. Honestly, it wasn't too long ago that I was whining about this very issue. The past year and half we have been overwhelmed with appointments after appointment. From OT, ST,PT, and visual therapy, psychiatrist, counseling, chiropractors, ER, and just plain sick days. I  often joke that I may not be a soccer mom by any measure, but I sure am an appointment mom....more

"I Don't Want B12 Shots to Take Away My Aspergers, Mom!"

Gabe asked “Why do I have to take these shots, mom?” It was really hard to explain, his eyes were welling up with tears, and I new that he was more then just upset about the shots themselves. I try not to sugar-coat too much for the boys, because frankly they don’t get it. Being direct and simple usually works best. “Well Gabe, B-12 is supposed to help you think better.” I responded, by now he is fully crying. “But mom, I don’t want it to take away my Aspergerssss,” crying pretty uncontrollably at this point....more
I wrote this to Celebr8nGenr8n, I just felt the need to move this up. I really had no idea that ...more

Friday Night 500 Club

TGIF! Fridays rock.  There is a happy vibe in the air, as most everyone seems to be anticipating the weekend's onset.  For me, my smile begins as it always does, by thanking my Creator for waking me up healthy, pain-free, married to a saint and glad my 91-year-old mama is alive and kickin' it.  Kids are healthy and working their goals, same with the grandkids.  Got great jobs, great friends, great dogs...G-d is GREAT! ...more

Sugar Free-Gluten Free Blueberry Pancakes

1 c. Pamela’s GF Pancake Baking mix1 egg.About  1 c. water. I like my pancakes thick. The less water you use, the thicker. So if you like your pancakes thinner, just add more water.Mix well.Stir in 1 c. blueberries. ...more

Hashimoto's & Me

I have been dealing with this for at least 8 years or more, maybe 20. And I don't even know where to start in regards to my feelings. It is a mix emotions or horror, self pity, self doubt, even hatred, loads of anger, yet a clear understanding of myself.  I never lacked motivation, drive, or desire. But I have always lacked stamina.  I will get this urgency to say rearrange the whole house in a day, but I am exhausted for a month. Holidays are the same way.  And I am not talking just a little tired....more

The highs & lows of Aspergers

Gabriel is my wonderful 7 year old . We’ve had some pretty tough spots. Mostly because he was so aggressive when he was angered.  I noticed right away, that he wouldn’t look at me. It was devastating as a young mom. I had a plethora of perceptions that were all wrong for him.  I spent many nights feeling alone, isolated, angry, betrayed in a lot of ways, inadequate and  I felt like I was a failure as a mom.  ...more