P90X / Insanity Journey Day 2

Aug 20th, 2013 Work out:  Insanity Plyo Cardio Circuit 7:30 am So excited to do Insanity!  My upper body is sore as hell though.  I had the same breakfast which consisted of egg whites and my thin bagel with avacado on top.  I had some pretzels and string cheese for a snack while I worked this morning and then one of my healthy choice meals for lunch since I will be working and its easy.   3:45 pm Well… I didn’t get a chance to do Insanity today. I worked all morning and afternoon and then my daughter has gymnastics tonight....more

My P90X / Insanity Hybrid Journey Day 1

Aug 19th, 2013   height: 5'2   weight: 135   goal weight: 125 (healthy & toned not starved) 8:15 a.m.  Last night was my last sip of red wine for a couple of days.  I know that sounds crazy ridiculous to some but for me the thought of not having a glass of red wine before dinner and during dinner causes some anxiety.  I write this blog mostly for myself to keep me journaling and accountable.  I don't care to share my journey really because I fear my failure.  I normally start a new program and quit.  I used...more

Is Your Inner Child Stomping Her Foot?

Do you see what I see?

Looking in the mirror we all see a version of ourselves that is probably quite different than what others see.  Anyone that has ever dealt with any bullying growing up will attest to the fact that it definitely adds to seeing yourself differently, and to be convinced otherwise is a challenge....more


I did it.Today I purchased my first pair of skinny jeans....more

"The Beauty is in the Imperfection" and Other Things We Need to Believe

This past Friday night, I awoke from my sleep in a cold sweat, nearly in tears and downright angry.  In my dream, my husband had just finished a conversation with, "And by the way, I think you're ugly and I hate your thighs!" ...more
It's past time to stop saying things we don't mean. "There is beauty in the imperfection" is ...more

I Confess: I Cut Myself

I’ve added a link on the “Where to Get Help” page to To Write Love on Her Arms. I first heard about this organization from a fellow patient at the psychiatric ward I stayed in during my second pregnancy. The woman, whom I’ll call Gabi, suffered from anorexia, depression, and anxiety, and she coped by cutting herself. She would cut herself in lines along her leg to comfort herself when she was feeling stressed out....more

an apology

I'd like to take a moment to make a long overdue apology.To my body.Hey you,I know we've had a rough go, you and I. We've been through a lot together. And I've got some things to say to you...We've made countless trips to the book store, you and I, looking for new diets and secrets on weight loss. And if that wasn't enough, we went through countless web searches looking for "quick" and "easy" hints to attain this magic goal weight.I am sorry....more
@agentsully Thank you so much for reading and your comments! I appreciate them :) I'll be sure ...more

Should being built "like a 5th grade boy" make someone a willing target?

Talk show host Wendy Williams once said she would love to see full-figured Adele naked in a PETA advertisement (whose images of naked women have somehow not convinced me to stop eating chicken). Here is Willimas’ quote (read the full article at the Huffington Post):...more
Well said. Nice example turning Wendy's words around to the other foot. The world will be a ...more

The Power to Hurt

In the long-ago summer of 1986 I was 19 years young, had just squeaked through my first year of university, and was back in what I considered to be my hometown to look for a job. ...more