The Skinny: Smart-Ass, Kick Ass Chicks Making a Difference

The Skinny, filmmaker and comedien's Jessie Kahnweiler's  current project produced by follows a young woman living in Los Angeles who struggles with bulimia. Playing the lead and addressing the eating disorder head-on, she hopes that her project will be part of a larger conversation about disordered eating. ...more


Today was a total loss. I spent most of the day sleeping and bingeing. The only victory I can claim is that I did not purge, which is actually something to be proud of. I guess. I feel so lethargic, even doing this post feels like a lot. I’m wasted on carbs. This used to be comforting but it isn’t working anymore. I’m still feeling too much.Back to bed to sleep off the rest of this day and start fresh when I next wake up. I can do better. I can be better. I can....more

4 AM Shame

warning:  may be triggering for those with an eating disorder.It’s 4 am and my head is pounding, my heart is racing, my stomach is cramping and my hands are shaking.   It’s been another day of bad food choices and shame.   I’m sad — I eat. I’m happy — I eat. I’m lonely — I eat....more

Will I Ever Be "Normal"?

Welcome to day 1 of National Blog Posting Month!  Today I am posting something I wrote earlier this week.  Not to worry, I will be writing new stuff on here and as always at my main blog, Not A Punk Rocker for every day in November   I plan to make some things exclusive to BlogHer as well....more

The Stupid Sister

Can I call your sister stupid?No? Does that bother you? I’m not sure why, seeing as how you don’t even like your her. You tell anyone who will listen and rarely go home for holidays. What? What was that? Oh, so you think your sister is stupid? So what’s the problem? Why is it that, even if you agree wholeheartedly with my sentiments, that it seems somehow inappropriate for anyone other than yourself to comment on the obvious lack of intellect with which your loved ones were gifted?...more

13 Years Out...My Recovery From An Eating Disorder

My mom was the one who figured it out. That seems to be the way a lot of the time -  moms just know things. My teeth were the giveaway. During summer break after my freshman year at Cal, mom had made an appointment for my yearly dental exam, and I came back with 9 new cavities. She'd noticed some suspicious things before - making big meals, long trips to the bathroom, fluctuating weight, crazy emotional outbursts, but before the trip to the dentist, nothing was too out of the ordinary for an 18 year old girl. But that one did it....more

Bringing Bulimia to Work

Potential trigger warnings for eating disorder behaviors.Twenty-nine minutes. That was my record for locking myself in the bathroom last year in the middle of a binge/purge attack during the workday. I know because unlike some people, I still have to wear a watch everyday out of habit....more
Lynds -Thank you, and congratulations on your recovery journey too!more

Bulimia - like being possessed

So, what is it actually like?  Well, I'm pretty sure its different for everyone, but for me, I can only describe it as like being possessed.  Some days are wonderful, filled with light and joy, when I can fool myself that I am completely normal.  I eat well - I mean real, good, proper food - and I enjoy it, and I think that it should always be that way.  ...more

My name is Liz and I have bulimia

Hello there,I'm new here, but I'd like to get it out in the open straight away - after all, that's why I'm here in the first place.  So, stand up, take a deep breath..."My name is Liz and I have bulimia."Gosh, that was both harder and easier than I expected - I haven't said it much you see, to one or two therapists, a psychiatrist (although we were mostly talking about postnatal depression at the time, more about that later), my husband, and just in the last week, to two of my closest friends....more

I Bought A Dress

Today I feel vulnerable.  In fact, I feel a lot like drawing the curtains, hiding under a duvet and not speaking to anyone....more