Some days the name of this blog (and my life) feels more like the last half of the word, instead of the first.  Some days, it's hard to be joyful.  Some days, it is all challenge.  Sometimes the day is much more raincloud than sunshine.  And I have to remind myself, it's ok.  Sometimes....more
God bless you and your family as you cope with your loss, a day at a time.more

Faithful Friday: Season of Singing

See! The winter is past; the rains are over and gone....more
 @Isabel_Anders Thank you!  Have a JOYful weekend!  :)more

Heaven Sent Hugs

I wrote Spring Showers soon after I arrived home, as I often do.  Commuting back and forth to work gives me a lot of time to think about things and so inspiration often comes from the road.  I'll try to capture my thoughts as soon as I make it home, hoping to complete it before Noah arrives and the busyness of the evening progresses....more

Play Ball


written May 3, 2009 - five months after losing my son...more
Hello there, Heather! How thoughtful of you to include us and especially those going through ...more

A Peaceful Spirit

Austin's last status entry on Myspace was "I wonder what will happen tomorrow." He wrote this the night before he passed. I asked him that night what it meant and he said he just knew we had a busy weekend, preparing for the holidays. I didn't give it a second thought, until I lost him the next night....more

Spring Showers

I love spring... rainy nights, vibrant green grass, cool breezes, singing birds in budding trees. In fact, it's my favorite season now, although it didn't used to be. I find hope in spring....more

Tea Time

The sharp whistle from my tea kettle sends me such sweet memories.I grew up on tea. Of course, as a child it was iced, sweet tea. My mother makes the best sun tea and seeing an amber pitcher warming on a summer day reminds me of my childhood. My Grandma McGuffin also mastered the art of a perfect glass of sweet tea. She had a glass pitcher that only made two quarts at a time. I'm not sure why she never bought a larger container, as we'd drink tea at her house all day long....more

Faithful Friday: Remembering You

 "I thank my God every time I remember you" --Philippians 1:3I went to bed last night with this scripture on my heart.  Yesterday I found Noah with his treasure chest opened on his bed.  This chest is one he built with his dad, shortly after we lost Austin.  In it Noah placed memories of Austin, things he treasured about his big brother.  The chest came with a lock and key and we shared with him that it was his to...more
I have tears in my eyes as I am reading through your beautiful letters to your son in heaven. I ...more

What It's Really Like To Lose A Child

Have you ever tried to imagine what it's like to lose a child? I can't even count how many times people have told me "I can't even imagine". Of course you can't....why would you want to? I'll admit it and say that I tried to imagine it A LOT after my son, Carter, was born. When you have a medically fragile child, you have to go there. You know that someday it probably will happen and you feel absolutely terrible thinking about it, but you feel like you have to prepare yourself. The ugly truth is that it is NOTHING like what you would imagine. It's a lot worse. ...more
Thank you for posting this. I sincerely admire your strength and I'm sure Carter must have been ...more