why God let me suffer

My sophomore year in high school was probably the toughest year concerning my mental illnesses. I wasn't too uncomfortable around my peers in middle school but that seemed to shift once I entered high school. I was much more insecure in my new environment. I could barely listen during lectures because my pessimistic thoughts were ringing through my head and the anxiousness that accompanied them just made things worse. I was convinced that everyone saw my every flaw; they were picking me apart just as I was. You know the saying you are your own worst enemy?...more

Depression is a social desease

When our most recent cat was still alive, I noticed that she would come and sit with me whenever I felt sad....more

Antidepressants - day 2

I was told I needed to eat before taking my new fancy "feel better" pills, buti hadn't anticipated feeling violently ill every time the time release capsule let out the next round of medicine. In 5 1/2 intervals, I found myself hovering over the toilet trying to puke. I have been struggling to eat enough due to everything I ingest blowing me up like a balloon and causing bouts of painful non stop burping. I've discovered that both gluten and anything with rice or rice flour/starch causes this, but it's hard to nurture the altered diet with limited food stamps and no income....more
After being up for a bit, I realize my anxiety is hardcore, and my hands won't stop shaking. ...more

Do You Have Angry Depression?

The Day I Didn't Get Out of BedOne morning this summer when I didn't get out of bed, I was at the end of my emotional rope.What I'm about to share is with zero pride, but it's part of the story....more

Antidepressants - day 1

So, I've been struggling with one major life altering issue after another since July, and finally hit my breaking point after being fired from a job that would have changed mine and my daughter's life financially. I've found it difficult to hold myself together, and be strong enough to help her cope with the changes that have also severely effected her, and finally buckled, and agreed to go on antidepressants for a while (something I've always been afraid to do, and never really needed before)....more
So far, even though I took it with food as recommended, I feel nauseas and incredibly ...more

Remission and Residual Symptoms of Depression: How much of depression can be treated?

I think it was only about a decade or two ago, the prevailing idea for depression treatment was to put someone on medication for 9 months then stop.   But then, people realized that ...more

We're All Fighting a Battle, So Let's Be Nicer to Each Other

“Always be kind, for everyone is fighting a hard battle.” I’ve often heard this quote by Plato (or some variation of it) for years. Here’s the thing, though; I’ve never really put much thought into its meaning or relevance. I mean, I understood it you can’t necessarily tell what struggles someone may be facing in their lives just by looking at them, and so you should probably refrain from being a total asshole to the people you encounter on a daily basis. ...more
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Medications Side Effects and Finding the Right One

Every TV commercial for a medication comes with a drone of possible side effects. Some people will think, ‘why bother taking something that can make you ill?’ and turn to ‘natural’ remedies. ...more

An Inside Look Into An Anxiety Attack

Has anyone ever bullied you? Have you have got into a fight before? Has anyone ever hurt your feelings? Sure you have. It really sucks and it hurts a lot. But, how we deal with it is where you and I become different....more

Neuroplasticity - How much can you change your brain?

Have you heard of the word ‘neuroplasticity’? It used to be believed that once the brain develops in childhood, you maintain that same brain (thought process, etc) for the rest of your life without much change. Now it’s believed that the brain can be changed, grow new brain cells even after you grow up.  ...more