Tokens of Melancholy: Desolation vs. Depression

Happiness, as a term, is often misunderstood. While it usually represents the state of mind— ‘popping a pill’ shouldn’t be accounted for. For me happiness has always been a race against pensiveness which certainly wasn’t a genetic misfire or an aberration. I grew up in a culture that valued a maddening approach toward elation— draping desolation with a fictitious veil. Amidst these cultural efforts, my melancholic aura held its own— showing up at times of self-contemplation. ...more

Truths About Depression: Stuff You Don't Want to Hear But Need to Know

Perspective is grand.Not being depressed right now, but looking back over the last 20 years of my adult lifetime and the seasons of my life where I had depression, has given me perspective.There is a lot written currently to bring awareness and understanding to mental illness, and this is very good.Please understand that what I’m about to say is not meant in any way to downplay the very real struggles of those with significant (and there is no insignificant — it’s all real) mental illness....more

I Am a Medicated Momma

I am a wife, a stay-at-home mom, a writer, and a comedian.And, finally, after far too long, I am also an advocate for mental health.You see, I am a medicated momma.  And I am tired of being ashamed....more

Self-Care Isn't Always Sweet And Cozy

Some nights, taking care of your mental health means vanilla scented candles and a long bath. On other nights, taking care of your mental health means forcing yourself to do your fucking laundry. I’m in the middle of the first depressive episode I’ve had in nearly a month — in a new city I just moved to, far from the people I’ve known my whole life. I try not to work on these pieces while in such a bad mindset because, well, they usually turn out to be bummers. ...more

Late Nights

Originally posted at Girl Gone Feral - July 6, 2016.I’m afraid of the dark. In the dark, my imagination runs wild. I imagine I can see red eyes staring at me from the corner of the room or that if I look out a dark window too long, something will appear, staring back at me. I won’t sleep with a foot or a hand hanging over the edge of the bed in case something under the bed reaches up and drags me under....more

I Have Seasonal Affective Disorder — In The Summer

The heat makes me feel the way I do when I’m having an anxiety or panic attack... Basically, it's awful. Everyone hates the cold, right? This girl doesn’t! For as long as I can remember, I’ve been intensely affected by heat and the sun.Passing out (or feeling like I’m going to pass out) has been an on-and-off-again summertime occurrence....more

Mental Health Awareness Isn't Enough

Mental Health Awareness Isn’t EnoughMay 18, 2016 - originally posted on

5 Natural Ways to Ease Depression

Summer always makes me long for the beach.I hear the crash of the waves on the shore, the cry of the gull in the sky, and the laughter of my children on the sand. I feel the warmth of the sun on my skin, I smell the scent of sunscreen on the breeze and taste the salt in the air. When I open my eyes, however, I see laundry. And dishes. And more laundry. ...more