Dealing With Gender Disappointment

I'm finding it hard to be enthusiastic right now, despite the fact I have every reason to be. Yesterday we had our big 16 week gender scan, which culminated in us finding out the amazing news that we are expecting a beautiful, healthy baby.....Again....more
If you really don't think you can handle another boy without losing your mind, I have 3 words of ...more

Shame Makes a Hard Thing Even Worse

2009 was an extremely challenging year for both Michelle and me. Among the many issues we faced that year, one of the most painful was the difficult financial situation we’d put ourselves into: We were $105,000 in debt and about $300,000 upside down on our house by the end of that year. There were a number of factors that contributed to this, some of which had to do with the economic downturn and the collapse of the housing market, but more had to do with our lack of awareness, understanding, and responsibility with our money. ...more

Down the Rabbit Hole: Beginning

I started Down the Rabbit Hole when I was blogging at Living a Faerie Tale and started my mental health journey with a PPD diagnosis....more

Part 13, Loss

Hey faithful readers! The contents of this post has been removed because of recently signing a contract with a publisher :) Thank you so much for the support everyone!!! Stay tuned for more details. <3-River Rei Hayden"The night is long that never finds the day." - Shakespeare...more

Mothers Get Better with Age

This much is clear to me about being a mother. Age makes us better. Death makes us extraordinary....more

Challenging Stigmas & an Imperfect System

Post has been edited. Updated version coming soon. If you are depressed or dealing with any other mental illness, please get help. Ask family, ask a friend, ask a co-worker, ask a neighbor. Call a hotline. It’s a good thing to ask for help. You are not a burden. There are resources if you don’t have insurance or lack the money for treatment.Do not give up....more
4lala on Blogher again? Look at you rockstar!!!more

Be Busy or Else! Mastering a 21st Century Malady

 It’s 3.23pm and I’m still in my pj’s. Another day wasted....more

Part 12, Deep in thought

Hey faithful readers! The contents of this post has been removed because of recently signing a contract with a publisher :) Thank you so much for the support everyone!!! Stay tuned for more details. <3-River Rei Hayden"The night is long that never finds the day." - Shakespeare...more

Finding My Calm

It sometimes reminds me of a spring or summer storm. There is always a gray darkness to it, sometimes almost black or sometimes a scary tornado-is-coming yellow. Some days it is steady and dull and constant; others it comes in fast and furious with beating heart and cold hands. It can be expected, like an accurate forecast; or it can spring up out of nowhere, like a cloud burst in a sky that was blue only moments ago.  ...more