I lost this battle, but I will win the war.

While I have struggled with anxiety and depression my whole life, I can usually maintain control over it. There are times, however, when it has much more control over me than I over it. It won a recent battle, and as a result I had to take a three week medical leave from work. While this was a huge blow to me, I can happily say that I took advantage of that three week leave to put some truths and strategies in place to help myself recover... and hopefully to prevent this from happening again....more
@Denise Thank you Denise! :)more

Depression: A Secret No More

“…as soon as you have a secret, something about you that you are ashamed to have others find out, you have given other people the power to hurt you by exposing you.” – Ayelet Waldman  I used to have the secret that my father was running from the law. He got arrested for cheating at gambling when I was 14 years old, and then he fled the country when he was supposed to go on trial....more
@moonsoar Thank you for reading and making the time to comment.  I'm finding more and more stuff ...more

Sad music can heal your broken heart by rewiring your brain

New research published in 2013 shows that people prefer certain music based on recent experiences. So if you just got in an argument with a rude person in the parking lot, you'll want to get in your car and listen to "angry" music. Ditto with a bad break-up and sad music. Music therapists explain that matching your music to your mood makes you feel understood, wich in turn provides a release that (eventually) allows you to move on with your life....more

L.M. Montgomery Messed With My Head

If you are a kindred spirit then this post will make absolute sense to you. If you don’t know what I mean by “kindred spirit”, then I’ve already lost you.I’m talking about Lucy Maud Montgomery, the author of “Anne of Green Gables”, “Emily of New Moon”, “The Blue Castle” and more. I read all of her books over and over and over again when I was young....more
It was brave of her family to share  this information. Maybe it will help others not feel so ...more

How to Keep it Together When Your Child is in a Mental Health Crisis

I cried far too much today. I cried because I have a sweet little ten-year-old boy who needs me to be a lot stronger than I am. I cried because I can't seem to give him what he needs, get him what he needs. I cried because he told us he's sad all the time, he can't make his brain shut off, he feels weird and out of place in this world, and he wishes he could be more like his brothers. I cried harder still when he saw me crying and reassured me that he was going to get better. ...more
Prayers and hugs. I know just what you are going through with the tears and sadness.  Meds ...more

Feeling down? Reach for these 7 mood-boosting foods

How we feel (depressed, anxious, sad) is affected by the chemicals in our brain. If you know what to eat, you can balance those chemicals to keep your mood more stable (and positive) in many cases.Here are some of the best foods to reach for to improve your mood:1. Lentils. Depressed people often have low folic acid. Lentils are high in folic acid.2. Brazil nuts. Depressed people sometimes have low levels of selenium. Raw Brazil nuts chave selenium.3. Avocado. Great source of folic acid and Vimain E....more

Postpartum and my life, dealing with myself.

I am not even sure where to begin. How do I start this post out? Do I begin with a cliche' "Hi my name is ______, and I have postpartum depression?" I don't think I should, so let me try a different way.This is by no means easy for me. Infact, it is a daily struggle that many women face. A daily struggle to get up out of bed without crying,feeling sorry for myself, or anxious until I am turning blue. This is my story however, of my struggle with postpartum depression. And my final straw to get help....more
@tatwood thank you tatwood:-) I have been doing better, but I still have those moments of ppd ...more

Controlled Crying

Before I had a baby I knew as much about "controlled crying" as I did about mining in the Amazon. To me, they both seemed unnecessary and did more damage than good. My impression of "controlled crying" was putting your child into its cot and letting your little darling cry for any given period of time until they either went to sleep or threw up, in which case you would change the sheets and start again. I had heard people say, "the first week is the worst but it gets easier once the child gets use to it"....more

TBI and suicide link in soldiers

Unless you live under a rock, you've likely heard about the large number of soldiers returning from war with traumatic brain injuries (TBIs). Whereas doctors used to believe that you had to be right next to an explosion (or in a Humvee accident, etc.) to get a head injury, we now know that soldiers can be quite a distance away and get TBIs from blast shockwaves....more

melancholy & infinite sadness

you probably shouldn't read this because i wear my heart on my sleeve. i hesitate to post anything less than chipper, cheerful, and happy go lucky... but i have been in a funk for days....more