Confessions of a Former Cutter

I never thought I would write this story. It's something I never wanted to be made public. But I've recently been thinking about my journey and decided it's time to confess to something I no longer do.I am a former cutter. I used to self-mutilate. (As I type this, my chest tightens with tension and anxiety.)...more

Flashback Friday: My Brain is Broken

Let's take a trip down memory lane to the last time I had a really bad depressive episode. It's been over a year without one and that's an extremely long time for me. I owe it all to my anti-depressant and I couldn't be happier about it. January 13, 2014 me was not happyThis past week has been a long one....more

The Middle of the Ocean

People keep asking what they can do for me. I don’t know what to tell them.When you are in the middle of a severe depressive episode, you don’t know what to ask for....more
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Worry Dolls

I remember being younger and starting to struggle with my feelings.I was a preteen. I was on the brink of puberty and my hormones were at war inside of my body.I would creep into my local “holistic healing” store with my mother and buy all sorts of things that she thought would help with my attitude, because that’s what it was at the time. I had a severe attittude problem. I would lash out, scream, cry, say terrible things to my parents. When I got overly frustrated with myself, I would hit myself on the head, or hit my head against a wall. Over and over and over again....more

Relating to the Dual Identities, Emotions and Hidden Strengths of Spock

Thinking about Leonard Nimoy's death, I realize that his best-known character, Spock, had a great impact on my life. Star Trek was on every day after school, and my parents would let us (three daughters) watch it, and that alone was kind of formative — Star Trek's Japanese-American character, Sulu, was one of the few images in pop culture of people who looked like us. Women were smart, capable and sometimes even in charge. The ship’s crew was probably as diverse as TV would get. ...more

Reclaiming Ourselves at Midlife

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Surviving the Winter Blues

Seasonal depression is a real thing, and it affects a surprisingly large number of people in the colder regions. If you happen to live in one of these regions, you understand. You’re cooped up inside all the time, with the exception of the walk from the door to the car. It’s dark when you wake up in the morning and dark when you leave work in the evening. Heck, you might go days at a time without being in direct sunlight! Just taking the garbage out or letting the dog out is a chore because of how long it takes to get bundled up in all your winter gear....more

My Feet Carry Me - Running Through Depression

For much of my adulthood, I have been a runner. For years, I belonged to a training group. I had a coach. There were paces, distances, track workouts, hill repeats, races. I distracted myself from the physical pain that comes with this level of training so that I could just do the work I needed to do and run faster or longer or whatever the end goal was....more

Suicidal Student Kicked Out Of Dorm Because He Might Negatively Impact Other Students

TW: talk of suicideImagine this: a student living in a university residence contacts his Residence Life don. He has fallen and injured himself, and there is blood everywhere. He is afraid he might die. He needs help.Surely in this scenario the don would seek immediate assistance for the student. They would bring him to a clinic or perhaps a hospital. Once the student had recovered, they would welcome him back to residence – maybe even put up a banner or throw a little party.Certainly the student would not be asked to leave the residence....more

My Story as a Depression Survivor

My Story as a Survivor of Depression It seems strange that  I should write about this now, 13 years after it happened. I am not even sure where to begin, since the situation presented itself most unexpectedly. So, perhaps the best place to start is right in the middle of it....more
L. Donsky-Levine Thank you so much for reading. It took me a long time to find the voice to tell ...more