Snow Day Voodoo

~journal entry to my kidlets on the onset of Snowpocalypse 2014 ~ It's a full on, can't be argued with, bright-skied, still-wind, crisp-yet-fluffy SNOW DAY. And I'm pretty positive you two kiddos made it happen. ...more

Dork

I took my mother to dinner with my newfound family a few days after my father’s funeral.  We all sat there and talked together, trying to fit the pieces of my father’s life together with our own. Timelines, and people, and loves, and children…and then, it all dawned on us at the same time. He was married to my sisters’ mother, Gena, while he dated my mother.It’s why they never married, I suppose.The dinner stayed pretty quiet after that. ...more

The Long Goodbye to a Father I Never Really Knew

My father was dying. Again. He’d pulled this dying stunt a year or two previously, and had us all rush out to the States to be with him in his hour of need. He didn’t die then. In some ways it was a wasted journey, and in others, the start of the journey that would be my adult life. ...more

I was in an abusive relationship, and cooking saved my life.

Sometimes I feel like I have a lived a hundred different lives and that I have found some impossibly clever way to tuck them all up inside of myself, revealing them only in the most deliberate of fashions. Like a wooden matryoshka doll stuffed full of smaller and less-full people, I sometimes seem to unfold.Which brings me to this story. This story I have been trying to write down for years now. This story that I am just now accepting as a part of my life, as something that happened in it and to me. It’s the story of how cooking saved me....more

Love & Marriage

After I left the house, I just kept driving. Thinking. Wondering what I was doing that was causing my life to fall apart, over, and over…....more

Dumb

I am so dumb. I speak before spoken to, without knowing or understanding implications or meaning. I sing without music or voice. I jump into quicksand blind to the black. I spurn the helping hand in fear, and stay deaf when branches rustle and reach. Only bare Faith…and the Wave… and my Anchor, thrust me back to the edge, so I can claw my way out.I’m sitting across from Pete, not listening. I’m back from Portland. Guilty feeling.He holds a secret while he talks, I can feel it. So I let him go on, as he’s sure to spill. He always does.And then…...more

Oregon Trail

We all come from someplace. Most of us know where we were born, have heard family stories passed down from our grandparents, our elders. I didn’t grow up with much of that, so indeed, it gives me great pride to tell my children their histories, to regale them with anecdotes of their childhood.  For Callum, it was The Great Climb – up the overplowed snowbank to the peak of a Mount Hood Chalet.  I still remember it like yesterday – looking up to find him sprawled across the glass atrium – strangers pointing and gasping at my 8 year old....more

Marriage, Divorce and 'Parenthood:' Come ON, Joel and Julia

**Spoiler Alert: You might not want to read this if you aren’t current with Parenthood episodes**...more
Why is there no discussion at all about the fact that Joel was kissed by that slutty mom Raquel ...more

The Divorce Diet

Looking for a sure-fire way to drop 5 to 10 pounds fast?Forget what you read in all the magazines or the ads you see on TV.My advice is to get a divorce.You're never hungry, could care less about food and find yourself fitting into pants that haven't felt right since you gave birth to your second child.When I was in the thick of ending my 18-year marriage, I looked great because I lost about 10 pounds in a week and saw a number on my scale I hadn't seen since 1994....more

On Beyond Anxiety and Pain

May I be real (with you)? I want to share a part of this difficult, painful journey, without embarrassing anyone or causing anyone distress. Facing the reality that our marriage was "irretrievably broken" was hard. ...more
anxiety and pain can be both cathartic and detrimental but finding the balance is anxiety ...more