Chooseing Life After Loss

  I would love to say that for the last 25 years my life has been one perfect day after another, since I do not live in a book I can't say that. My life like any others has been a bumpy, not always perfect, sometimes harder than others, full of love kind of life. I have survived things I never thought I would and learned lessons I shouldn't of had to learn at such a young age. There has been wrong turns, right turns, bad moves , and good ones. I have laughed and cried (A LOT), but always found out the right thing to do for me and the ones I love. ...more

Finding Peace Within Your Heart

Even when the world seems to be spinning out of control, when you have peace within your heart everything is in harmony. Many have the misconception that having peace in their hearts means that there is no discord in their life. But this is far from the truth, peace brings you calm during the storm. No matter what you are going through in life, if you are at peace nothing can touch your spirit. You will go through life knowing that whatever happens, you will be safe. Turbulent times are still in your future, but you can handle all that comes your way....more

Chapter 6: The Windup Girl

4:30 in the morning and I’ve yet to fall asleep.  The digital clock next to my bed, with its glowing red numbers, mocks me as a I will my brain to shut down and, for the love of god, just let me fucking sleep!  I’ve tried everything, but the pills and the meditation tapes and the classical music… none of it’s working.  My brain just will not stop running....more
@4kidsmom Thank you.  I wrote this as part of a memoir that I've been working on.  This actually ...more

Spittin' on Fire

It’s so weird to be 43 years old and single again.  I so never expected this, or wanted this.  Yuck. Suddenly, even normal things seem confusing.  Like getting dressed.  I was dressing for a fun night out with another mutha the other night.  I put on a cute new top.  It had giant holes cut out of the shoulders.  I loved it.  My shoulders are thin and tan, the blouse was white and the fabric thin and drape-y....more

The Cycle Of Life

While sitting in Atlanta International Airport awaiting my connecting flight that would take me to my getaway spot for the next several days I kept telling myself that this trip was not to be squandered. ...more

How Do We Talk About the Wisconsin Sikh Temple Shooting?

Two weeks ago, a gunman entered a movie theater in Colorado and killed twelve people. In the days following the shootings in Aurora, there were discussions. We spoke of inadequate gun laws. Or we argued that this had nothing to do with guns....more
20,000 miles away, in an era where news ought to reach each end of the world in the speed of ...more

Releasing Your Worries To The Wind

It's time to release your worries to the wind. It is not for you to capture what is not yours or to hold to them so close to your heart. It is not for you to keep something which does not belong to you. Worries are troubling thoughts that keep you from moving forward in your fortunate life. You begin to live the life of someone who does not trust the future for there are thoughts which mislead you. They are inaccurate in what they make you believe. The stories that you make up are not what truly is. Worries are what you keep because you are too fearful to release them....more

Home For Sale...

Home For Sale.....By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/ aka Granny GeeI was sitting here thinking about my grandson,Taban.  I wonder where he is moving to... or if he has already moved.  Of course, he is too little to move by himself... he's only 5 years old.I understand his mother is selling the home they live in.  I sit here wondering 'why' she didn't bother to tell us, at least send word that our grandson would be moving, there's no chance to see him now....more

You're a Mean One, Mr. Grinch

It’s been a Dave kind of day.  The kind that causes a painful lump in my throat.  It causes me to press my lips together, clamp down on my jaw, and just turn my head away from whoever is in the room.  I open my eyes wide, so that more tears can be held within the rims of my eyelids.  I wait for them to evaporate.  Everyone thinks I’m so strong.  I’m not strong.  I’m giving myself TMJ and walking around looking bug-eyed.  Why?  What caused this?  Well….what hasn’t.The Olympics.Beach volleyball....more

Cross Post: Loving Me Sadly - Depression

“As tough as it is, depression can be dealt with in a paradoxical way. See it as a visitor, perhaps an unwelcome one, but one who is visiting whether you like it or not. Make a place for your guest. Invite your depression to pull up a chair with you in front of the fire, and sit with it, without looking for a way to escape.” -Elizabeth Kubler-Ross & David Kessler from On Grief and Grieving...more
 @FatCat Thank you very much for your kind words. :)more