Bereavement

In November, I brought our old girl dog to our veterinarian. She had began losing weight and developed a bad cough. I worried she might have pneumonia....more

This Broken Heart

I’ve been told that we’re supposed to grow from pain. Learn from the past, forgive, grow stronger, gain wisdom and character. Take to our faith in troubled times, and embrace it.There’s truth in those beliefs. We’re always growing, moving, and changing. Even when we dig in our heels, and hide under the covers. Because you can’t stop life, even when you’re broken, even when your caught in bliss....more

Buckets of Hope - Surviving Multiple Miscarriages

This week, I had my third miscarriage. According to the numbers, 1-2% of women will experience 3 or more miscarriages. Not really something I would have chosen to be an overachiever on, if I’d been the one making the decision.It’s a truly humbling experience, and the grieving is exhausting. I go back and forth between being numb, then jealous of others who seem to get pregnant at the drop of a hat, then angry, then feeling more than a little sorry for myself, then numbness again.  Not pretty emotions to contend with. It’s embarrassing. ...more
@ahundredaffections Thank you so much :) I did a bunch of research on Friday about becoming a ...more

When Will We Stop Counting the 9/11s?

It's September 11 again. And I'm dreading it. I want September 11 to go back to being just another day in the early fall. Is this wrong?...more
Thank you for sharing. My husband and I were just sharing similar sentiments on the evening of ...more

Fire Wife Life Series - I Have Anticipatory Grief

I have anticipatory grief....more

Death, Loss And Their Potential To Awaken Life

As I sat in a local breakfast spot with two of my best girlfriends this morning I received a phone call that a young woman my family knows passed away in a drowning accident yesterday evening. She was a local middle school teacher who left behind her husband and two young children, both under the age of four....more
@elaineR.N. Elaine and Melanie! How good to see you here, when I return this morning. I had to ...more

Picking Up the Pieces

That photo was the source of the avatar I've used everywhere for nearly two years. It's being retired--replaced with a photo of Silver.See more here...KF-in-GeorgiaMiscellanea ...more

Watching Your Mother Die

You push your metal chair way back in the cramped hospital room. You’re still only two feet from her bed, but you need space to breathe—even though she barely can.You watch her 59-year-old mouth gape like a dying carp’s and thank god and the morphine that she’s unconscious. You ignore the fact that you’ve been sweating the cancer-ward smell—latex, alcohol, flat Sprite—out of your skin for weeks.You also ignore the truth: that time and tumors can’t fill the chasm between you and the woman lying there. You feel the old hurt mix with the new hurt so savagely your bones ache....more
If I hadn't known better, I might have thought I wrote this...  So many similarities to my own ...more

Life is Hard

A boy breaks your heart Another boy breaks your heart You have to break a boys heart You lose a relative You lose a parent You lose a best friend<...more

Sad music can heal your broken heart by rewiring your brain

New research published in 2013 shows that people prefer certain music based on recent experiences. So if you just got in an argument with a rude person in the parking lot, you'll want to get in your car and listen to "angry" music. Ditto with a bad break-up and sad music. Music therapists explain that matching your music to your mood makes you feel understood, wich in turn provides a release that (eventually) allows you to move on with your life....more