The Comfort That Remains

Here I am, caught between reactive depression and clinical depression.If you've been reading my last several posts, you know that I've been having a rough month. Several months. It's been a real challenge to my hard-won quasi-stability.Last week, my 20+ year old cat, Louise died. The week before that, my husband's 17+ year old cat died. So now I am trying to deal with those reactive feelings of grief and loss, without losing myself in the eternally waiting Pit of Despair that is clinical depression....more

Cannabis Infused Coconut Oil

Healing From Autoimmune Disease

It's Time

This has been a long time coming. It started with a whisper in the back of my brain and I wrote Musings. Then it grew to a hunger in my soul and I wrote Telling Stories. And now I just know: it’s time. It’s time to press publish and say:I am a survivor.Of sexual abuse. Of sexual assault....more

The Cocoon

Everyday I watch a part of our lives crumble beneath our feet and notice that the precipice we are standing on is getting smaller. I am in chronic pain and I work demanding jobs. My physical strength has lessened and fat seems to wrap around me like bubble wrap....more

THe Silver Lining & Healing

The Silver Lining & Healing through AdversityPosted on March 25, 2016 by ...more

Changing the Lens of Loss Brings Focus to Life

The other day I received two texts from two husbands - past and present - at the same time. Bing bing. I didn’t know they were both texting me, I was precariously in plank position on my yoga mat in my bedroom, solid on my left toes and balancing on the big toe of my right foot - the one with a broken fourth toe. I’ve gotten really adept at using my big toe to manage the needs of my decrepit foot. It takes some concentration, and feels like I’m tempting fate. ...more

Medicating with Cannabis - an Update

 I thought I would do an update on how I'm medicating with cannabis. I've been a patient now for almost six years and over that time, I've modified how I use cannabis for my rheumatoid arthritis. I'm in remission now and I don't need to use as much as I once did....more

Post-traumatic stress is real

As the television played in the background, while I searched for real estate on the Internet, I began to hear the story unfold.  Although I had no idea what show was airing, at the time, some of the voices sounded familiar to me.  As the scene became more dramatic, I put down my phone and began to watch intently.  That is when it happened....more

Author, Speaker, Single Mother & Radio Talk Show Host: Call for BOOKINGS

  Rustie MacDonald Author, Speaker, Producer and International Radio Talk Show host. ...more