I Lost My Baby, Too

 Our first baby would have turned 14 this month.And every year around this time,a tiny shudder will run through me when I step into a bathroom.It will always be a room where I first said hello and good bye to motherhood. I can still see the colour of the walls.I can still see the lines on a stick....more

10 Ways To Help Your Children Remember A Loved One Who Has Passed Away

Memory is a living, breathing thing and it's death presents the moment we stop remembering.  There's something of the immortal in it - something eternal that follows us as long as we let it - a fingerprint, left behind by the one who left us behind. ...more

Saying Goodbye to a Best Friend

I've known a post like this has been inevitable for a while, but it doesn't make it any easier to write. ...more
I so understand and send my condolences to you and your family. Eleanor RigbyCat sounds like my ...more

Shit That Happens Behind the Scenes

Am I the Last Person to Read This?

Hello there! I have just reviewed a book that touched me so deep in my heart, for so many reasons. It's not a new release (is it possible I'm the last person to read it?) but I hope you'll track it down and read it anyway. It is truly nourishing in so many ways.The Secret Life of Bees  by Sue Monk Kidd. A modern classic.Here is my full review, I'd love you to click over and share your thoughts!http://lazywmarie.com/the-secret-life-of-bees-a-very-long-personal-book-...Lessons learned, dreams fulfilled, adventures shared...more

Thoughts On A Second Child

From the time we eloped the questions started, when are you guys having kids? A little presumptuous I thought but then there were the more subtle questions; Do you guys want kids? How many kids would you like to have? When would you like to start your family?  I was still processing the fact that I just eloped in Vegas, babies weren't really on our mind yet....more

The Bathroom Floor

Pretty much every day I do the regular tidying up of the house.  Wash dishes, put away toys and books, wipe down the tables, throw in a load of laundry, and maybe even sweep the floor.  Just enough to maintain my sanity and give the babes enough of a clean slate to create new clutter the next day.  It’s not often that I get to really clean the house.  Yes, I say that like it’s a reward to be able to deep clean because with three kids aged three and under, it kind of is.  I’m alone.  I can listen to music (or silence)....more

The Paradox of Letting Go in Foster Care

Foster parenting contains, by its very nature, a strange dichotomy. On one hand, you're expected to love and care for a child as if it was your own. On the other hand, you're expected to let that child leave your home after weeks, months, or years - whenever the circumstances are deemed appropriate....more

Part 15, My Best Friend Forever

Hey faithful readers! The contents of this post has been removed because of recently signing a contract with a publisher :) Thank you so much for the support everyone!!! Stay tuned for more details. <3-River Rei Hayden"The night is long that never finds the day." - Shakespeare...more

Why I Would Never Recommend Using a Midwife

** TRIGGER WARNING This post is about miscarriage, babyloss, stillbirth, and the fallout from it. It is about negligent care from midwives, and more. Please do not read this if these topics may cause you emotional stress, that is never my aim. **I can’t remember what the weather was like that day. I can’t remember what I was wearing, or what I ate for breakfast. I do remember, in great detail, the searing pain of loss I felt, though, when I heard those wordsThere is no heartbeat, your baby has passed away....more
tea4tamara I know that many midwives are wonderful, just as many OBs are (and many are terrible, ...more