My Crazy Sane: Relationships and Mental Illness

The My Crazy Sane column will be a regular part of this blog but by no means the whole thing. This is my effort to shed light on issues people in recovery from mental illness face by sharing my personal experiences as well as the experiences of others when appropriate. ...more

The Therapeutic Hug

The common wisdom is that a person needs four hugs a day for survival, eight for maintenance, and twelve for growth. I doubt that this is confirmed by any scientific studies and I doubt that it is true. If it were, there would be millions of people on Earth who would not survive....more

Saying “Bipolar” And “OCD” Casually Doesn't Make You Quirky Or Edgy

It happened again last night, around 10 pm. Sometimes there’s an inciting incident, but more often than not it comes for no clear reason at all.I’ve been living with Bipolar II for about three years now (at least, that’s as long as I’ve known), and at this point I can recognize the signs from a mile away.Everything is starting to feel… slower. It’s like there’s static from an old television in the back of my head, and it’s getting louder.I’m about to be in the midst of a depressive episode....more

I Count Everything

I count often during the day. I count steps whether I’m going up or down, I count how many steps it takes to get to the laundry room, and while I sit on the toilet, I count how many tiles line the bathroom floor. I don’t remember the numbers; they’re irrelevant, I’m not measuring or keeping track. I have a constantly-multitasking abacus mind. ...more

Things To Avoid Saying To People With Mental Health Problems

Recovery from a mental health condition is a complex and difficult journey that can be a full time endeavour. It's not a a linear process; but full of blips and struggles as well as triumph and success. Recovery can be hard enough without unhelpful (even if well meaning) comments or conversations. Here is a collection of the types of things people in recovery wish you wouldn't say to them! This list was compiled initially thinking about recovery from an eating disorder, but a lot of the comments apply to other conditions as well....more

I Am a Medicated Momma

I am a wife, a stay-at-home mom, a writer, and a comedian.And, finally, after far too long, I am also an advocate for mental health.You see, I am a medicated momma.  And I am tired of being ashamed....more

Self-Care Isn't Always Sweet And Cozy

Some nights, taking care of your mental health means vanilla scented candles and a long bath. On other nights, taking care of your mental health means forcing yourself to do your fucking laundry. I’m in the middle of the first depressive episode I’ve had in nearly a month — in a new city I just moved to, far from the people I’ve known my whole life. I try not to work on these pieces while in such a bad mindset because, well, they usually turn out to be bummers. ...more

I Have Seasonal Affective Disorder — In The Summer

The heat makes me feel the way I do when I’m having an anxiety or panic attack... Basically, it's awful. Everyone hates the cold, right? This girl doesn’t! For as long as I can remember, I’ve been intensely affected by heat and the sun.Passing out (or feeling like I’m going to pass out) has been an on-and-off-again summertime occurrence....more

How a Chin Hair Made Me Cry

You know how, sometimes, you find yourself overwhelmed by the sheer number of items on your To-Do List, and you wonder how you’ll find the time to get it all done and not let any of the balls drop and all you can do is cry while your husband stares at you like you grew a third head? You know how, sometimes, you have those dreams where that To-Do List creeps in and manifests itself as a giant cheese grater, chasing you down a never ending hallway and you look down and see that you’re clutching your favorite pair of jeans from 12th grade?...more


I will never be able to diet freely. I have given up that right. A diet will always be lethal to me. It will always be something that will likely spiral into full blown restriction. They say it takes a certain amount of days to create a new habit. For me, one day can make a difference. What happens today will mimic tomorrow. The slightest decrease or increase can spark a change in my eating habits....more