Every year, I remember our first pregnancy, our child who would have been due in December:
I always think about that loss, even though it was early, when I hang that ornament every year close to the top of the tree. But this year, maybe because I’m back to writing in a way I haven’t been since then, I resurrected this essay I wrote back then, as a way of dealing with my grief. It’s call First Anniversary of a Child Unborn:
Over the next few weeks, you may all think that I have gone completely "off the reservation" as the saying goes. That's me folks. I think I'm driving the crazy train, losing my marbles, wigging out... every used up cliche you can think of. Muddled up. Please don't "mute" me, I'm just working my way through things. And writing about them (very publicly) seems to be helping me get through it all. It's the best therapy I can think of right now. ...more
Are you one of those parents who like to say "No" each time your child asks for something that is outside your comfort zone or what you deem acceptable?This habit of saying "No" not only strains your relationship with your child, it can become a potential hazard for her.And what do I mean by this?In order for me to fully explain it to you, I need to give you a virtual tour of my room....more
I’m going to be honest with you guys. I’m really tired of my son.
The level of disrespect and general level of unhappiness is becoming so distressing that I’m barely functioning as his mother. I don’t want to be around him. I don’t want to do anything for him....more
On weekdays, mothers and fathers arrive at my house after battling to get their children ready and out the door to drop their kids off at my home-based daycare. When they get here I can see the conflict in their eyes. They hate saying goodbye, but they have to work and most have to prepare to battle their next barrier of the day – traffic....more
It all started with that moment of staring at my child saying "well kid, its just you and I this year." As my fiance is deployed, I am lucky enough to stay home this year with him. Coming from a social lifestyle to staying home with our son I realize how important "adult interaction" is in general. You stay at home mom's know what I'm talking about....more