Juggling as fast as I can

A day in a life, my life as a stay at home mom is not sitting home watching TV or reading a book or even sitting and eating.  A day in my life can have me everywhere doing everything all at once....more
Sounds like quite a journey you are on with your youngest. I truly admire your decision to seek ...more

A surprise on my doorstep

Yesterday was my birthday and you knew that right? It’s not like I’ve been keeping it a secret LOL! The day was spent in my favorite way with my family doing family stuff and sneaking in some house stuff.  Curtains hung as we continue to settle into our home after more than a year....more

Thankful for Emotional Comfort

Thankful for the emotional space we have given both of our girls to talk about and share anything that comes to mind … last night our youngest told my husband how much she loves him, loves her family, her birth mother and all and how she was so thankful that S chose us to be her Mommy & Daddy, made us both teary....more

The discussion of nature and nuture

From WikipediaNature versus nurture: The nature versus nurture debate concerns the relative importance of an individual’s innate qualities (“nature,” i.e. nativism, or innatism) versus personal experiences (“nurture,” i.e. empiricism or behaviorism) in determining or causing individual differences in physical and behavioral traits....more

Why Our Child's Open Adoption Isn't Crazy for Our Family

We have an open adoption. A lot of people think we are crazy. (We also think we are crazy, but for totally different reasons.) Actually, maintaining a relationship with our son's birth parents is one of the least crazy things we have ever done. When the alternative is withholding a relationship with people who created him, it seems insane to do anything else....more
We are also an open adoptive family with contact with our 2 children's birthmothers. It is ...more

To the Brink and Back

The “D” word.I said the “D” word.Disruption. Despite my reservations, I let E go down for a week and a half-long visit with Bmom and his bio siblings. I couldn’t come up with a better reason for him not to go than “I don’t think it’s a good idea,” and couldn’t explain beyond that, so I caved. Next time I’ll know better, but you know what they say about hindsight. ...more

The Last "F-Word"

As you may have noticed, I get very nostalgic when you hit major milestones: your first laugh, your first words, your first steps, your first birthday, yoursecond birthday, your first big boy bed…the list goes on. ...more

What It Feels Like to Become a Mother Before Becoming a Mom

Nine years ago today, I pushed my daughter into this world with one last mighty push. Nine years ago today, I became a mother. Nine years ago today, a brand new resident doctor stitched me up while my daughter's mom held her for the first time, my arms empty. The pain of the inexperienced stitching didn't compare to the burning hot pain in my heart as I lived through that first experience of almost but not quite, the life-long journey of birth motherhood....more
Wow, this is a very powerful blog. I haven't experienced it before and couldn't imagine it, but ...more

Open Adoption, Open Heart

The world of adoption has changed dramatically over the past twenty years. No longer do biological parents have to say goodbye to their child forever. They now have more options when deciding the type of adoption to pursue, such as open adoption. Open adoption creates the opportunity for a special relationship between biological parents, the adoptive parents, and the child. ...more

Adoption is Everywhere

Dear Little Man,I’m going to share a secret of mine with you. That secret is that I dream about being pregnant again someday.In my actual dreams, I’m generally terrified of pregnancy and, in dream world, I find myself thinking, “I’m pregnant again? Oh my, I wonder if The B’s will raise this one for me, like they did Liam…” So, so, so weird. I’m generally thrilled to wake up and realize it was a dream because I has such a difficult time going through with placing you…I’m not sure I could do it again....more