A letter to my son

Long before you were born there was a park that I liked to go to on Sunday mornings when I got off of work. I went there other times too, and in my memory Judah was with me, though that is impossible, she wasn't born yet either.It was a park far on the eastern edge of Tucson.  Agua Caliente park.  It means hot water, and honestly I think it was the only park with a pond in the area.I worked the graveyard shift at Juvenile hall, talking all night to kids who had been arrested.  It was emotionally gruelling....more

Why I want a church home

After I posted on Facebook about my experiences with a local church congregation, I had several people contact me.  Some to encourage me and apologize for the church in general and others to say, “Why do you put yourself through this? Why not just worship God in your own way? Why put up with organized religion at all?” I thought about it a while and this is my response to both groups of people. ...more

Don't wean me yet, baby

 Baby T threatened to wean today.  I'm not sure what was going on, but all afternoon, he would climb up into my lap, lift my shirt, examine my breast and then turn away.  I felt a bit rejected and I felt a bit scared.  I asked him, " what's wrong?"  and he responded, "NO!"  Because at 20 months he doesn't have the words to answer that question....more
So glad he did, for both of your sakes!more

We've got the makings for a sit com...

  I certainly never planned my life to be like this, and if you had asked me 5 years ago, or even 1 year ago if I thought that I would be raising my son by myself, with the help of my mom and dad who live in the guest house in my back yard I would have howled with laughter.  But, here we are. I lived in Arizona with my boyfriend when I had my son.  My boyfriend suffered from Multiple Sclerosis and the heat was really hard on him, and he loved mountains.  I was originally from Oregon and after I had the baby it made sense to come back home.   It ...more

My Teenager is Finally Seeing that I'm Right

I talk a lot during the day. I tell people things, they listen. However, I don't really know if they are absorbing  the words of astute wisdom I offer up for free on a daily basis. I am very wise and I try to tell people that all the time. I think they think I'm kidding. ...more

Why I want a church home.

After I posted on Facebook about my experiences with a local church congregation, I had several people contact me.  Some to encourage me and apologize for the church in general and others to say, “Why do you put yourself through this? Why not just worship God in your own way? Why put up with organized religion at all?” I thought about it a while and this is my response to both groups of people. ...more

The News

I never thought I would be one of them. Not that I ever judged them, because my younger sister was one. It just never occurred to me that it would be me. I had been so picky about finding “the one,” and at 37 I thought I did…until reality set in and I knew I hadn’t....more

Cest la vie

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Americans are STUPID

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Demonic Amputating Flowers

 Yesterday was sort of sad.The baby has been talking about Dave a lot.  I’m remembering now that the grief counselors advised that the kids would re-grieve at each new developmental stage in their lives.  The baby is turning into a big boy.  He’s going to school.  He’s doing bigger boy things.  And realizing that Dave is dead….again. ...more