Until October 22, 2013, my focus had narrowed to include less and less and less until it was solely on my heart. Anxiety and panic have plagued me my whole life. I remember hating to go to bed as a child because I knew my nightly fate was to lie there, hearing and feeling my heart pounding.
In a very frank post, writer Stephanie Perkins takes us through the contents of her head. Her brain berates her, telling her that she's all alone; a worthless failure. Even though she knows rationally that this isn't true, she explains how difficult it is to talk herself out of this monologue. She lays bare her inner thoughts in order to let others who suffer from depression know that they're not alone. And for that, I'm very grateful.
[Editor's Note: ED trigger alert]Last week, the misogynist-troll website Return of Kings published 5 Reasons to Date a Girl with an Eating Disorder, by a writer named Tuthmosis. When I first read the post, I thought surely it was written ironically. (Of course, I also thought that the first time I heard the lyrics to Blurred Lines.) The “reasons” included hot thinness, cheapness to date, and wildness in the sack. ...more
Sunday I, God willing, turn 54.I am at the age where I enjoy a birthday weekend. I mean who wants to have a birthday in the office? I love my office but hey, I’d sooner sleep in, have breakfast out…you know what I mean? I am going to an open house on Saturday night with Jim.I’ll try to check in over the weekend, to let you how I am doing this weekend: here’s hoping you have a good weekend too!...more
Guilt. It’s such a useless emotion. What good does it really serve? Yet, it’s an emotion we feel often about a myriad of things. Quite often guilt is centered around food. But should you really feel guilty about food? And has it gone to far? I think so....more
I am sitting at my computer, listening to my son play a few feet away from me. (Yes, I know I should be standing.) He is singing a brilliant mashup of "Frosty the Snowman," "Abracadabra," "Little Red Caboose," and "All I Want for Christmas Is You." (Trust me; it's brilliant.) He sings a few lines of one song, then moves seamlessly into the next. The problem comes during one of the Frosty bits. He is singing this:...more
This is a post from 'State of Grace', a blog I maintained from 2004 to 2009. I wrote frequently and candidly about my perspectives and experiences as a survivor of child sexual, physical and psychological abuse and neglect. This was a piece with a list of how I manage the profound difficulties of celebrating holidays with abusive members of my family. For Christmas, 2013, I humbly present this to the BlogHer readership, most espcially for my sister and brother abuse survivors and their allies.(Edited from original post, November 26, 2009)...more
Today, I accepted a prescription for anti-anxiety medication and made my first appointment with a psychotherapist. I left the doctor’s office nauseous and wondering if my brain could physically explode out the back of my head.Plenty of my friends have extolled the virtues of medication and therapy, particularly during transitional times of life. I’ve always resisted.You see, medications and therapy mean asking for help. Not only do I have an aversion to asking for help, but I go blatantly out of my way to avoid it....more
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