I Miss Grocery Shopping with My Mom

My grocery cart isn't nearly full enough today, but my heart is another story. I've put off grocery shopping for about a week and a half now. A little over a year ago, I had no choice. When my mother was low on food, I had to replenish. There is no longer any urgency. My family can endure a few days of doing without. That's why God invented pizza. ...more
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I Was 9 Months Pregnant When My Mom Died

The phone rang and my body tensed, just as it had for the last two days whenever the phone rang. I was waiting for the call. The one where the voice on the other end of the line would tell me, "She's gone, Jacqui. Mom died."...more
My mom had health problems from the age of 13. We nearly lost her several times. I always ...more

RIP Oren Miller, Dad Blogger Extraordinaire

I don't believe there are good and bad humans. Probably I'm naive, but I believe in good humans and less-good humans: humans who are weak, damaged, hurt, unloved, hungry, addicted, mentally ill or otherwise not their best selves. ...more
DoTryThisAtHome JoAnneApple I didn't, but I'm not surprised. We like to think ourselves so ...more

The Day the World Ended, Part Two

Before she disconnected the call, I asked the dispatcher her name--Shannon--and thanked her for her help. As I got to the end of my driveway, the truck stopped in front of me and told me, “the smoke is heavy, but you can get out.” That’s all I needed to hear....more

The Day the World Ended, Part One

(August 6, 2013. He had taken the kids down to the beach, where they were to spend a couple days with their grandfather. He was going to come back that evening, as he had to work the next day. Since I didn’t want to be in the house alone with him, I packed my suitcase and spent the night at my son’s house, 10 minutes away.)...more

I Miss Grocery Shopping with My Mom

My grocery cart isn't nearly full enough today, but my heart is another story. I've put off grocery shopping for about a week and a half now. A little over a year ago, I had no choice. When my mother was low on food, I had to replenish. There is no longer any urgency. My family can endure a few days of doing without. That's why God invented pizza. ...more
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The Waiting, It Is Almost Over

Soooo, that whole waiting thing? It's been going on. Hopefully well, because it's no secret that I am not a fan of the waiting. And if I do well and eat my peas and carrots, then maybe, just maybe, I will not have to keep doing it too much longer....more

the birthday that might not have been

Like most moms (and dads, of course) I never thought to prepare myself for what it would feel like to lose a child.I’m not talking about losing him in the mall or losing him in a crowd; I mean to lose him forever.We were so immersed in the business of living that it never occurred to me that anything life threatening might happen to my Angel Boy.Health and fitness has always been a priority....more

Please, Take My Wedding Gown

Hey there, folks!My wedding gown is beautiful. I found it three weeks before my wedding, off the rack at a David's Bridal here in town. It was the third dress that I tried on and I just knew that this was the one. I walked down the aisle in my gown on one of the best days of my life. I danced the night away and clomped through the grass for Pinterest-worthy wedding photos. I love my wedding gown....more

What Do You Say?

 What do you say? I have been struggling what to say for about three weeks. I know what to say when someone gets a new job; I’d say “Congrats” I know what to say when someone gets married; I’d say “Congrats” again When someone loses a loved one; I’d say “Sorry for your loss” ...more

A Letter to a Friend Lost to Cancer

One of my best friends lost a parent to cancer today and my heart hearts for her loss and my heart hurts because I knew her and loved her too. She was a wonderful, dynamic and loving person and I am happy she doesn’t have to bear the burden of fighting anymore. I know I will hear her laughter forever in my memories....more

A woman's thoughts on mortality

Antonette with her son AidenMarch is Women’s Month. It is that time of year when the world celebrates small and big victories achieved by women and I can't help but express my gratitude to these women in the frontlines who made these significant strides to progress....more