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When the going gets tough, the tough get going. Or maybe they get hiding. After reading about the death of Guy's daughter in the opening chapter of Jeremy Page's Sea Change I understood Guy's need to run away. Guy is unusual in that he creates not only a new life for himself, but a new second life in his journals where his daughter is still alive.

Guy retreats to a barge in the North Sea. He cuts off contact to most people from his former life and teaches music lessons. Mostly though, he stays on his barge and he writes. As someone who grew up on an island, I understand why Guy ran away to the sea. I understand the pull of the sea and do my best to position myself close to some kind of body of water. In my current home I'm just a five minute walk from a stream and a ten minutes away from a small pond. It's not the ocean, but it does the job. If I were to ever run away from my life I'd be running toward the ocean.

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In the world that exists only in his journals Guy runs away in another way. He retreats to the land of what might have been and though he controls the story, he finds it too runs away from him and goes places he didn't expect. He discovers that he can't hold on to what was that way any more than he could in his real life.

Have you ever wanted to run away from your life? How would you do it? Where would you go?

BlogHer Book Club Host Karen Ballum also blogs at Sassymonkey and Sassymonkey Reads.

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flutie.mcd 6 pts

i used to, when i was younger.

now i feel like i've grown into myself and who i am and how i fit into this world - and i own it. it's amazing how much we evolve... nowadays, i'd much rather face it & get it over with than to have life chasing my heels wherever i run.

livelovenrun 6 pts

I've definitely felt like running away from my life...to where, though, I have no idea. While my sisters, mother, and I are extremely close, the rest of my family seems incredible selfish and dysfunctional. And that bothers me more than I would like it to. I have very high expectations when it comes to family...because in my eyes, family is where it's all. That's where love and values come from. As I get older, though, I'm also finding that things happen for a reason and sometimes you just have to move on.

dancingnancy1 6 pts

I totally have - at least for a bit. It doesn't help obviously, at least not if you stay there, but sometimes it provides the extra insight and knowledge to take a real look at the situation.

theprovidentwoman 6 pts

I've never run away from life or wanted to. Everything happens for a reason and it will lead to new things. Some good, some bad, but I find everything works out. Even the sad things.

ewillse 12 pts

I think of a good, absorbing story (book or movie) as a way to get all the benefits of running away-- a new perspective,

ewillse 12 pts

continued--- (hit post by mistake... sigh maybe I need to run away for a bit! long week!) a good story gives me a new perspective, a change of scene, a chance to get all the benefits of running away in my imagination.

Which is really what Guy was doing, creating and researching his family's alternate life. I was so surprised, and weirdly pleased, to see the scene of all his guidebooks where he was researching an America he had never seen...

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

ewillse It was fascinating to see him research it but... imagine what it would have been like if he had actually done the trip. If he had really run away on an adventure instead of running away to sea... Would it have made a difference?

ewillse 12 pts

sassymonkey What I found interesting was how meticulously Guy and the author explored the safe space-- he's kind of running away, by taking to sea, and he's living an alternate fantasy life of a more extensive journey, without committing to it fully. So it's in between, as though he's run halfway away. Instead of either-or.

slappyintheface 20 pts

I don't want to run away from my life, but it would be nice if other people ran away from me for a little while. My idea of a perfect vacation is a week at home alone. It will never happen - maybe that is why I crave it so much.

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

slappyintheface Your reply made me laugh but it also made me nod my head. I totally understand just wanting your space to yourself for a bit.

One Frugal Girl 6 pts

I got sick a few years back and felt absolutely miserable. I was in my 20s and couldn't relate to all of the people in my life that were healthy and well. I definitely wanted to escape, but of course there was nothing I could do. Eventually I learned to count my blessings and thankfully by the grace of God my health improved. I learned that it's important to think of all of the good things in life rather than focusing on the bad things. It's the best way to get through bad times.

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

One Frugal Girl Hmmm I wonder if Guy simply didn't have a lot of good things? Even when he was remembering his past he didn't seem... happy.

megzalzala 6 pts

While I have never physically run away from my life, I often find that when I am stressed I like to run away mentally--usually by writing, day dreaming, or reading a book. It usually tides me over for a while :)

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

megzalzala Sometimes we just need it to tide us over. Mini escapes.

HonestAndTruly 8 pts

I don't know how I would ever have dealt with the tragedy that Guy faced, but I'm sure I would run away somewhere. Where I would go, I don't know. I know it would be somewhere small and isolated - and I get that desire Guy has. Fortunately, this isn't something I've had to think about thankfully!

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

HonestAndTruly Most of us can be thankful for that.

Indigo 9 pts

I have no idea where I would go, too many people depend on me where I am. I would probably never run away from my life, but rather deal with it internally on my own.

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

Indigo Do you do little escapes like reading books, watching movies, etc?

megancamille 5 pts

I could completely understand Guy's desire to run away after his daughter died and his marriage falls apart. It would be so hard to deal with and I think the grief would be too much that you would just want to leave everything behind. There are times that even now I wonder what could have been.... but I try to remember the good times and push through the trials to see what good ends up on the other side.

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

megancamille I totally get the desire to do it. And probably even doing it for awhile. I've been trying to figure out if Guy lost himself after Freya died or if, maybe, he had always been lost.

victorias_view 1062 pts

I think we all have that urge to run and we lose the ones we love sometimes it makes it much harder to stay. I think the loss of a child would bring me so much uncontrollable grief that I would need to run. Would I be daring the ocean? I don't know but I would have a hard time starting over.

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

victorias_view "I don't know but I would have a hard time starting over." I think Guy's problem was that he didn't try to start over. He never wanted to. Except maybe at the end. Maybe.

Bravelyobey 8 pts

Don't we all at some point or another want to run away? See what the alternative might have been? I'm very happy in my life now, but I occasionally wonder what else my life might have held if I'd made different choices in my past. But would I change anything? No.

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

Bravelyobey I think we do. I wouldn't want to change anything either.

littlemeaggs 5 pts

Occasionally, my husband & I joke about just "running away together" to get away from life's problems, but of course we quickly remember our responsibilities and ultimately stay put to fight through the roughness life throws at us. However, if we did run away, a deserted island is our top choice. Just the two of us, to enjoy life together :)

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

littlemeaggs It must be nice to have those dream moments though. I'm sure they are a nice coping mechanism.

Kath_Stewart 11 pts

I did run away from my life. At the age of 44, I left my hometown, my family, friends, a job of 20 years, everything I had ever known to move with my (then new) husband 600 kilometres away.

I was running to happiness, not away from sadness but it is an interesting perspective to think that I ran away.

It is still the best thing I ever did. Without question I would not have photography, art, writing in my life without that "seachange"

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

Kath_Stewart Running to happiness. That's awesome.

allicatcook 6 pts

I have thought at some points it would be nice to run away and hid in some foreign country that would be beautiful and no one would know my name. But I somehow always come to realize that life would find me there too. I don't think you can ever really run away. Life has a way of catching up to you and the same problems or fears you ran from will present themselves again.

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

allicatcook I used to dream of running away to Paris. Then blogs happened and I realized the reality of living in Paris is far less ideal than I dreamed. That said, I have visited Paris and thoroughly enjoy it and would jump at the chance to do it again. But live there? Probably not.

kristendom 5 pts

Yes, yes I have wanted to run away from my life - at so many points. There were times when the best place to run away to seemed to be death even. Luckily, I'm in a better place now, and though there are still days I want to run away, it's a more temporary running away - to an island in the Bahamas, perhaps. Or a cabin by a lake. Something with nature and water and little to no contact with people - except those I want to contact.

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

kristendom I am glad you are in a better place now. And who doesn't dream of running away to a sunny beach from time to time?

Ashleigh Burroughs 16 pts

In Junior High I wanted more than anything to move and start over... with or without my family. I've settled for 15+ years in 3 different cities and each was an adventure in and of itself... and each was "running away" from the life I'd left behind.

Now, though, I am content. I couldn't imagine living anywhere but Tucson, which has nurtured and loved me and which is keeping me warm and sunny today while the rest of the world if cold and gloomy. I would love to run from the sorrows... but then I'd miss the joys.

Guy was lazy, taking the easy way out, living in his fantasy. I will not do that.

a/b

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

Ashleigh Burroughs I understand Guy's running away to a point. It was the longevity of it that I found hard. A couple of months? Even a year? I get that. But that many years is something I just can't get.

lifeneedsedits 10 pts

I "ran away" about a year ago -- I picked up everything I had after 4 years in DC and moved to NYC on my own. Looking back, it was one of the most impulsive things I've ever done. And this year has been one of the best and hardest of my life. Turns out that you can run as far as you want, but it's like trying to ditch your shadow. Whatever you're running away from is always right behind you. I definitely understand Guy's need to leave, but when he started to do it again --- and left the other boat without saying goodbye --- I got angry.

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

lifeneedsedits "it's like trying to ditch your shadow." I like that way of describing it.

Heather Siegel 5 pts

To an alternate universe where everything is the same but appreciating isn't something I have to learn. Oh, and can I swap out my current partner? Kidding. Kind of.

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

Heather Siegel "Kidding. Kind of." Ha!

felicepd 5 pts

Sure, I have definitely wanted to run away. I can think of at least a half dozen times during high school when I wanted to just take off. Where would I have gone? Not sure. I just remember the urge to be anywhere but where I was, thinking life was "so hard." Teen angst, I guess!

Mama4Real 6 pts

I don't necessarily dream about running away, I dream about hitting pause. The kind of 'pause' like in the movie "Click" with Adam Sandler, where you can pause the scene, but still move around within it. I would like to just be able to sit quietly, without any time passing.

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

Mama4Real Pause. Yes. That would be nice.

jessicapeck 5 pts

There have been times in my life when I've had *enough*. When I was younger, I remember having the feeling of wanting to run away. Being older and having more experience with life, I think its such a weak thought. Running away never solves problems, just postpones them and usually makes them worse to deal with later...

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

jessicapeck I think it can be a weak thought but I also think that sometimes when you dream about running away and you think of how you'd do things differently you sometimes hit upon a solution to how to fix things. Or steps to take to fix things.

erin.etheridge 8 pts

I sort of ran away from my life at the age of 13, when my family moved from LA to Chicago. Although it wasn't something I had control over, I *wanted* to get away, and I reinvented myself for the good. The problem with running away is who you choose to be at your new destination might not always be better.

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

erin.etheridge Your comment made me think of Mclean in Sarah Dessen's What Happened to Goodbye ( http://bit.ly/ifyhph ) and how she kept reinventing herself with every move.

tiaras-and-trucks 24 pts

I think wanting to run away is natural. (Maybe I should say I hope it's natural!) When things get stressful with (extended) family or our current house, I think about going (with my immediate family) somewhere and just starting over. I'd love to live somewhere close to water, somewhere warm so our kids could play outside all year round. Sigh.

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

tiaras-and-trucks I think based on this discussion it's totally natural. (Either that or we're all unnatural which would be kinda cool too.)

sarahlipoff 5 pts

I sometimes think about running away and starting over but know, once settled and re-grouped, I'd probably just want to run away again!

A great book or movie is my way of escape...

sassymonkey 318 pts moderator

sarahlipoff More books than movies for me. I get restless just sitting and watching a movie.

Kerrie F 6 pts

I think we have all wanted to run away from life at some time. In Sea Change Guy headed out to the sea. I am not really an ocean kind of girl (which is why I live in Colorado). I would run away to a cabin in the mountains where there would be nothing but blue sky, pine trees and the sound of a trickling stream.