Bottom line..."Neuroticism is low"...when you're not dealing with family!
By sisbe on September 19, 2012
“Your score on Neuroticism is low, indicating that you are exceptionally calm, composed and unflappable. You do not react with intense emotions, even to situations that most people would describe as stressful."
Took a personality test shared by one of my writing co-horts, Emily Rose. It was the shorter version and revealing all the same. Answered the questions honestly and read the results which made me smile. It was all quite obvious to me; it's just a "duck swim", may appear smooth coasting but down under, thoughts are racing!
Had to draw blood from a heroine addict the other day. His veins were so collapsed even the experienced tech's and ER nurses couldn't start the IV. Then there was the trauma who presented with his penis cut off. He said he flushed it down the toilet, irretrievable, it could not be re-attached. The other day responded to a Cardiac Arrest, we got him back. Found out he took Viagra earlier in the day, he was 80 years old! So many procedures, so many clients, so many stories, all in a days work. You might not yet know the root cause of their shortness of breath, or "no breath", but it doesn't matter, you have been hired and licensed to operate within safe standards of practice; save lives! You signed up for this.
But why is it my own family makes me want to scream?!
My whole life been a rescuer. On 7/11 a woman died in the Hospital and later it was found her children 6 and 12 were fending for themselves. We sheltered them for 4 mos until they could find placement. When my sister left her husband, she stayed with me to get her head straight. When my daughter got pregnant, she came back home for stability. When Jeannie, Francis, Wilma and Katrina pounded our land, mom and dad blew in. All stayed for a short time to heal, find stability and understanding was birthed for all. Finally they left and we adopted two rescues; American Bulldog Freckles , Min Pin mix Pickles and a parrot named Pookie! Life almost felt normal and then the ball shifted into our court. Economy took a dump, husband needed a stent and we were suddenly a one income family facing bankruptcy.
Digesting an awesome book called "The Angry Smile" by Jody and Nicholas Long and Signe Whitson. It's about the psychology behind passive-aggressive behavior in families, schools and workplaces. It speaks about anger as a natural emotion but how it doesn't always reflect an accurate perception of an event. A feeling may be triggered but one needs to clarify "the why".
“The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.”
― Gloria Steinem
So if someone in your workplace or home is driving you CRAZY, or you feel guilty about a situation and taking on false responsibility, guess what, you might have fallen into "counter aggression behavior". This occurs when you interact with their judgement of you; in a sense he "catches" their anger, as they would an airborne disease. p 11 By reacting to their comments towards you, or choices they make (which usually attacks your personality or character and compels you to take action), facts are, they are waiting for your reaction. DISCERN and let it be assertive action, hush your thoughts for a moment, don't react without first understanding the "why". Don't let your ego get in the way.
Unlike passivity and aggression, assertive behavior does not depreciate or cause harm to either person. If they have hurt you, quick forgive them, remember this too shall pass. Follow through, with kindness. It's a healthy way of defining the boundaries of one's personal reality. Once "empowered" you will no longer feel like a confused victim but have discernment and see the root cause of the anger and understand their behavior. You will no longer fall prey, or be a puppet and your life will become less emotional and more stable. This can strengthen any relationship and open the doors for greater honesty. Hostility will be decreased and the need for passive aggressive forms of emotional expression will be diminished p 160
It may be difficult to stand and face the truth about yourself, bottom line, you are SO WORTH IT! :0) Love on my friends (and family).......love on!
Bottom line? Charity begins at home, but should not end there.