Can you have a mid-life crisis at 24??

Please forgive this initial long blog- There isn't a "brief" history here..

My husband and I married in the fall of 2010 and almost as soon as we exchanged vows my need/desire for children has consumed most of my waking thoughts (and even some of my dreams).

I found out when I was 21 that I had fertility issues, which I had an inkling of since I have never had a normal menstrual cycle (I could literally go 2 years w/o one), but really hadn't thought much of it. At 18 we (my now husband & I) stopped using any form of protection and I was scared excited nervous that we would get pregnant (reckless, we know), however- it didn't happen. I didn't put too much thought into this because we were younger and I just wanted to let "whatever happened happen" but finally @ 21 my OBGYN confirmed we would have definite issues trying to get pregnant. NBD since weren't married yet. Over 3 years later...  and for the past 18 months I have thought of little else.. and my husband?

A month after we were married I sat my husband down to discuss REALLY trying to have a baby and apparently we had a mis-communication bc he thought i was telling him that I WAS pregnant. The emotions that came from him (I could feel his heart explode across the table with excitement and saw his eyes light up in a way I had never seen *& haven't since* & then complete disappointment when he realized I wasn't) confirmed for me that he was excited about starting a family as well.

One of my amazing friends referred me to her specialist who diagnosed me with polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) which can cause obesity in the mid-section & infertility. I was prescribed 2 medications to help balance my hormones and was told that I could take another prescription and be pregnant within 3 months. My husband freaked out stressed about getting on the 3rd medicine and want to try "naturally." To me- this is a complete waste of time, because if after 5 years nothing has happened naturally I don't see how it would magically happen now. Don't get me wrong- he will suggest different things that are supposed to increase our chances, but obviously nothing has helped. And I completely understand his points for waiting to go to a specialist again... "We have the opportunity to put money back, enjoy time for us, do things to the house.." but none of those fills a baby blanket.

I'll write more about things we have been through & are going through later this week, but you can expect my hopes, fears, and frustrations from this.

lily*

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