Coming Out Of The Spiritual Closet

If you follow what I post on Facebook, you may have gotten a glimpse of what’s been happening to me in the spiritual realm over the past three weeks, but this is the first time I’ve tried to sit down and write a blog post about what I’ll call “The Experience.” The unfoldings have been so non-cognitive that I’m finding it very challenging to engage the part of my brain that likes to write, so I’ll ask for advance forgiveness if what I’m about to write makes no sense.

So what happened? I have no idea how to explain the lightning bolt that just hit me, but one of my spiritual teachers Tosha Silver explained it to me like this. “Lissa, it’s really simple. You experienced a kundalini awakening that opened up “siddhis.” As we hiked through Tennessee Valley, I gazed at Tosha cross-eyed with a furrowed brow, and Tosha said simply, “Google it.”

What Is A “Kundalini Awakening?”

I had never heard of either a “kundalini awakening” or a “siddhi,” so I Googled both. Reading about kundalini awakenings, I discovered that Eastern spiritual traditions describe kundalini as this untapped energy within us that coils up like a serpent at the base of the sacrum. When we unleash this potential within us, we can awaken spiritually into union with the Divine and awareness of what some might call “God consciousness.” Some spiritual traditions engage in practices meant to release this kundalini energy, such as meditation, yoga, chanting, Tantric sex, and being given “shaktipat” (a kundalini transmission give to you by a guru). Apparently, some spiritual seekers spend their whole lives actively trying to unleash this harnessed potential.

But apparently, kundalini awakenings can also happen spontaneously, and when they do, they tend to affect more than one individual at once. That’s what happened to me, April, and Dennis, the two other people I was with when this all happened. No drugs were involved. We weren’t doing yoga or meditating or chanting or doing anything sexual or in the presence of a guru. We were just sitting around on an ordinary Monday when all three of us got hit by something none of us expected, and in the wake of it all, the veil got pierced in ways my cognitive mind can’t even begin to explain.

The “Siddhis”

What happened in the wake of all this makes absolutely no sense to my cognitive mind. The three of us were able to communicate telepathically. April and Dennis witnessed each other “glowing.” I was able to dissolve clouds and make it rain in drought-ridden California and call in a pod of whales with my intention alone. The sand on the beach around where we sat moved when it shouldn’t have.

Dennis- a scientist who publishes academic physics books and journals- suddenly became psychic. Overnight, he became clairvoyant, clairaudient, clairsentient, and started channeling both Universal truths and information from dead people. In this channeled state, Dennis could access information about strangers that they’ve never told anyone, such as traumatic experiences from childhood. Without any clue what he was doing, he started spontaneously doing psychic readings on strangers everywhere we went- at a coffee shop, at the spa, on the telephone with his family members. He was also transmitting messages to me about my purpose here on earth, why I’m here, what I’m meant to do. The information he gave me was very specific, and honestly, it sounded like something straight out of a bad science fiction movie. I’m still not sure I believe any of this, but April also became suddenly psychic, and she verified some, but not all, of what Dennis was telling me.

I now realize that much of what I’ve been learning over the past couple of years about bending spoons, calling in the animals, communicating telepathically with other people, and manifesting what we imagine in our minds into being in physical reality- they’re all “siddhis.” Trustworthy light beings like Martha Beck can use these spiritual superpowers in service to the light. But if not properly respected, the siddhis could be used by forces of darkness in ways that only feed the ego. This is my beef with the “law of attraction” in the way it’s taught in books like The Secret. Sure, we can use our siddhis to manifest Ferraris, but why would we want to? As I’m learning from Tosha Silver, I’d prefer to let the Divine take the lead in my life, rather than using spiritual superpowers to feed my ego’s desires or impress people.


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