Post Partum Blues

It was so exciting having my new baby girl. She was absolutely beautiful and such a good baby. So why wasn’t I happier? I could not stop crying and no matter how deep down I searched, I could not find that joy that I knew that I should be feeling. What was wrong with me that this incredible blessing was not enough to make me happy? Does this mean that I am not a good mother and that there is something wrong with me? ...more

Survival of the Species, or Why I Blame Genetics and Hormones

The desire to procreate, in some, is so strong that it creates a sort of tunnel vision in the afflicted. One can’t see beyond trying to make a baby, and they never stop to think about what it will really be like once said baby has in fact, arrived. I don’t mean to demean the whole carrying-on-the-family thing. Hey, I’m as guilty as the rest of people that once had a dream, and in getting that dream, got a whole lot more. ...more

14 Days Later

May 6th, 1999 was the day I was expecting to give birth to my son, Jaden. Days before I literally had my bag packed and I was impatiently waiting for something to happen. No contractions. No water breaking. No nothing. I was sitting at work on May 7th, and was getting antsy. I didn’t want to be stranded on the NYC subway system giving birth on the PATH train and then risk being featured on the evening news. ...more

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