All in the Family

My oldest brother rested his hand on my shoulder. “Want my paper route? Since I leave for college in August? The tips are great.”            I nibbled a fingernail. Regular spending money? Something to do besides watch Gilligan’s Island every afternoon, Monday through Friday?            I grinned....more
@Denise Thanks, Denise! It makes me smile too:)more

the face of joy

Last night, big sister was working on her solo ballet routine. In the last five minutes of the lesson, I am always called in to be the audience. Normally, her teacher has me film the performance as a learning tool.Don't film this time, just watch. Tell us if you notice anything different. I wasn't sure I would be able to see what they wanted me to, I have no training in dance. And my eyes are often blurred by tears....more

Childbirth, Through the Eyes of a Nine Year Old

I made the huge mistake of streaking down the stairs last week with nothing but my pants and bra on to grab a shirt out of the laundry room. About the time I rounded the corner into the kitchen I see both boys sitting at the bar eating their breakfast. The conversation then followed about like this:Evan: "Mom! Your belly button is gone! What's wrong with it?!"...more
Hahaha! I think that is a great explanation ;)more

How Do You Know If You Should Have Another Baby?

When I was pregnant with my second, and then my third, I was often asked how I knew I wanted another. How did I know I wasn't done? Was I trying for "the girl?" How many kids did I want? How did I know? How did I know when I was ready for another?...more

Wash-Rinse-Repeat: Cultivating Sibling Love

Recently I sent my kids to their room to clean it up. Their room is small, they don't have many toys and not much needed putting away. If they worked together, they probably could have gotten the job done in 5 minutes. Instead it took them an hour. They spent much of that hour fighting over who made the mess, who should clean it up, who the toys/clothes/books actually belonged to. They argued over who was helping and who was laying on the floor. They hollered over how unfair it was that they had to clean up after each other when they didn't make the mess. ...more

The Struggle to Find Normal Family Life Amidst Special Needs

He rages again. It's the fifth time since I've been up, counting from the blood-curdling time-out screams that awoke me. I have no idea how many it was before that. Kyle's on kid duty in the mornings since it's summer, a blessed reprieve from the glass-walking that is morning time with those two. This time, it's because WALL-E is on, because Tova picked it while he was throwing a fit in his room. That's part of what he does now -- something disrupts his despotic rule over our family and he runs to the stairs, hitting and slapping them as he goes up to his room to lay on his bed with the blankets over him....more
*hugs* I won't tell you I know what you're going through because I don't, but I will tell you ...more

Centerting a Universe

 Patience is a virtue, or so they say.  And so, virtuous I am not.  I am always waiting for something. Right now, its for this little tiny baby girl growing in my tummy.  I am so anxious to meet her.  To breathe in the scent of my newborn, to nurse her, to stare in awe at her perfect little fingers and nose.  To not be pregnant anymore, and just get on with it.  Get on with life, with getting to know this little being, with moving forward and finding a family groove....more

The Main Characters

Going from One to Two Babies -- Joys, Challenges, and Stretch Marks

In case you've got either zero or one child right now and are contemplating adding another one to the mix, let me share with you a few thoughts on the subject:...more

My Kids Are Not Entirely Fond of Puzzles

This journey…this intro to life with a child on “the spectrum” has been challenging to say the least.  We have so many devastating moments that are balanced by those of complete and utter joy…of hope.   Just when I think we are on the right path of diagnosis, Ben has a few hours of complete normalcy that lead me to believe maybe we’ve been too hasty here.  Maybe I have more control over this than I originally thought....more