Dear Ray,

I just tried to do a video blog of a letter to Ray my ex but I couldn't do it I started crying damn why do I love him so much so I'll do it as a written:

 

Dear Ray,

 

You know how I got Caden the Zu Zu pet stuff the battle arena and he was too young for it - he isn't anymore but he uses it for his cars - i thought u might want to know seeing as you wanted him to have the set too - you wanted to play with him with it! I still think about you every day god I don't know why but you are and always will be the love of my life even though all I am to you is a good fuck thats all i am to anyone even my baby daddy bc thats what he says anybody wants me for so that just shows me thats all he wanted me for to well thats not true he wanted to mooch off me he thought i was this dumb fat desperate bitch that would do anything for a little dick HA HA i am not ugly i can get dick anywhere yes i don't like to sleep around but i will if i have to i won't let someone live off of me especially someone that i have a kid by they are supposed to support me and their kid - just like you used to tell me he is nothing but a piece of shit and he still is - I want you to hold me and tell me everything is going to be alright baby i miss our good days together we used to have so much fun when we weren't fighting (i could not have done this in a video i can't stop crying) I wish you loved me the way i love you i know you love me i know it why are you so scared i would never leave you no matter what you would never lay a hand on me you've proved that to me because i've taken you to the edge and back and you never put a hand on me I LOVE YOU - yes i am crazy and so are you we are meant for each other just be with me asshole I hope you seee this one day and you find me and grab me and say i love you to and everything will be better and we are together forever - man i sound like a teenager but i guess thats it just another letter telling you i miss you and i love that i don't mail you forever and always yours B.

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