Dieting, overeating, binging and food blogging
So I’m at a crossroads: what items will you see on my recipes page in the future? Can I follow my passion for baking or do I need to take a break and change things up? I only know that I’m going to keep posting, that I’m going to keep cooking and that I’m dedicated to really taking care of myself and that will ultimately help others do the same when they find my articles. I’m at a crossroads with my personal life as well: can I forgo some of the many pleasurable things that are on offer in the short term in favor of my long-term well-being?
These things have been at the forefront of my mind…
My mom has been off sugar for months now: absolutely incredible. I’m going sugar-free myself this week (small increments of time feel less panic inducing and are easier to stick to) and seeing her do it is definitely an inspiration.
This article has great information about what cravings indicate about your body’s deficiencies, for example, when you’re craving sweets, eat cheese, sweet potatoes or fresh fruit because your body is really craving chromium, carbon phosphorous, tryptophan and sulfur.
One Part Plant, Jessica Murnane’s blog for healthy eating. Really gorgeous recipes.
I’ve been engaging in EFT to clear away a lot of the childhood hangups I’m still carrying around about food, for example the concept of “comfort food,” the idea of eating ice-cream when you feel sad, or the basic idea that eating food is a reward or, even something to be rewarded (remember the ‘clean plate club?’) I first heard about EFT from reading Gala Darling.
I’m also engaging in conversations to clear out aforementioned hangups: talking to my boyfriend, family and even friends about it helps so much. I’d like to make a note that I’ve talkedabout my eating issues my whole life, but in a very different way. I would brag about how much I could eat without gaining weight, I would joke about how I had no control over myself and would talk endlessly about chocolate (girls are supposed to talk about chocolate, right? that’s like ‘our thing!’) I literally thought if my eating wasn’t disordered in the starving/purging side of things, then I had a healthy relationship with food (oh, teenaged brain….)
I’m reading more, writing more, learning more. I like to be challenged and I like to reward myself emotionally when I’ve done something difficult. Usually this reward comes in the form of food. I went and bought some new books this month. I’m reading them. I’m excited about reading them and look forward to reading them. It’s kind of simple and may seem feeble as far as a ‘defense’ goes, but having a part of every day to do something I like takes the edge off the day’s stressors and I truly believe it’s helping me with the panicked ‘stress eating’ that I experience.
I will definitely post more on this subject and I hope that it doesn’t come across as too fragmented or negative in any way! I am in the midst of these changes, so it is hard to talk about them with the detachment that time and experience provide. (I also have no desire to overshadow anyone who has actually been diagnosed with an eating disorder and their trials. I also have no training or qualifications to advise from a medical or psychological standpoint, but these fine folks do.) This is where I’m at and I thought I’d share a little of what’s going on in my brain and in my kitchen lately. Please feel free to comment!
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