Since finding out about my daughter's "MySpace" account and how depressed she has been I kept investigating (snooping).  I found messages and post that first made me angry about her actions.  Then I thought that this must have been her way of getting back at us for moving away from her friends.

While visiting her friends, 3 hours away, she drank alcohol.  I'm still not sure if this was done behind the backs of the adults.  The adults I trusted with the safety and welfare of my youngest child (12 yrs old).  I believe that an untrustworthy adult sibling of her friend is responsible, but I can't prove my suspicions. My daughter talked about getting drunk and how good it tasted. 

I had to keep digging...what else could I find?  How about this...She drank liquor at my house on several occasions.  We never thought that any of our kids would do such a thing.  We have always talked"Just say No"  We trusted!

Posts kept getting worse.  She talked to friends about a curiosity with weed.  Told one friend that she had bought some but hadn't smoked it yet.  Another post talked about "getting high" after school.  She is still denying, to me that this happened.  Says it was all talk. I'm not so sure.  I'm no sure about anything concerning my daughter anymore.

She tells me the cutting was an experiment and it only happened once, but "MySpace" posts tell a different story.  It all just makes me so sad and fearful for my daughter.

I am so thankful that I discovered my daughters secrets.  Now I can get her the help she needs.  She has some serious issues with the move, us (her parents), brother, name calling at the new school.  She has been keeping so much inside herself that it just became too much for her to handle.  Warning signs were there, but I didn't realize that until recently.  Horrible mood swings, defiant behavior, crying over seemingly nothing but not getting her way, misinterpruting things that her dad and I say, thinking we can't love her unless she is perfect and thinking we love our son way more than her.  She has been in pain for quite a while.

She doesn't want to be in pain anymore and has agreed to treatment.  I have gotten her in touch with our local Crisis Center, she's been put on anti-depressants and therapy has been scheduled.  Now I need to pray.  Pray for her well being as well as for our family.