Do You Pray?
Prayer is different for everyone. Do you have a set time when you do devotions and pray? I don’t. I feel it is not authentic if I am forcing myself to pray at a certain time. I do a lot of praying in the shower and while I am driving. I do my reading anywhere I can, mostly before bed. I do have the YouVersion Bible app on my windows phone, so I have been known to read in the waiting room at the Dr.’s office, while waiting in line, in my car (not driving), in a coffee shop, anywhere I can get cell or internet reception.
The first time God spoke to me through the Bible was in 2003. It was fall. I was having a rough time with seasonal depression. I prayed for him to “take me by the hand and lead me out of this”. He told me to read Psalm 73. When I opened my bible to Psalm 73 and came to verses 23 and 24 my jaw dropped.
23Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand.
24You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. (NIV)
Two years later I began praying for a baby. We had been married for 5 years and people started to ask when we were going to have kids. I knew I wasn’t quite ready, but at that time I wasn’t very good at creating and keeping boundaries with people in my life. We began trying to conceive in 2006. In March of 2007 I was told by my OBGYN that both of my fallopian tubes were blocked and I would not be able to conceive without Invitro. That was the beginning of the end of my previous marriage. Psalm 73 was a passage that I read and reread during my long and nasty divorce. I continued to pray about a baby. I prayed for 5 consecutive years that somehow, someday I would become a mom. Even if that meant adoption, even if that meant on my own.
In 2009 God told me I was going to meet the person he wanted me to be with. (Big Daddy Crab) I told him I wasn’t ready. I was in the middle of a long, bitter, nasty divorce. Yet he put Big Daddy Crab right in my path. In 2010 Little Crab was born, without Invitro. 5 years of praying.
Originally posted on We Three Crabs.