The End of My Journey to Motherhood
This post was originally published on my family blog, Suiresphere, in May 2011. It is one of my favorite posts about the struggles that all mothers have when it comes to deciding to have more children...
Our church had baby dedication on Mother’s Day this year, making the day a little “extra” special for those new moms who proudly held their squirming infants and toddlers in front of the congregation. Tears blurred my vision as I looked down the row of little girls covered in bows and ribbons, and little boys dressed in their Sunday best. On two separate occasions I have stood at the front of our church to dedicate my children to God and I know how proud and exciting that moment can be for both parents.
|A family of three|
|Our first family photo as a family of four|
|Family picture taken around Tallen's First Birthday|
So when I teared up looking at those new moms at the front of the church on Mother’s Day, I was also shedding a tear for me too. Babies are no longer in my future and I have come to the end of my journey to motherhood. But my motherhood journey is still rolling ahead full steam. And I love it more every day.
**Update on 2/8/2012 - My babies are now 5 1/2 and 2 1/2 years old. I have still not been able to take steps towards permanent birth control and the baby swings and car seats are still sitting in the garage. Although I believe my journey to motherhood has ended, I have a hard time letting go of the reminders of my babies.