Finding Yourself: Learning about yourself through Blogging
This past year for me has been an emotional roller coaster. About a year ago, I fell in love for the first time. The man I fell in love with was someone with whom I'd been friends with for about a year. Everything went great for a few months, and then things started to fall apart. He was much more introverted than I, he was also judgemental, and selfish. We broke up just 1 week into 2012. I don't think that the loss would have been as bad however, if I didn't lose two of my best friends at the same time. My best friend since the 5th grade had moved to Enlgand for grad school last October, and one of my best friends whom I'd known for over 5 years decided he never wanted to speak to me ever again one day before Christmas. It also didn't help that almost all of my friends were suddenly in relationships, and that the birth control the doctor had put me on was making me super hormonal.
Needless to say, all of this led me into a deep dark spiral. I did somethings I regret, although for the most part the risks I took were rewarding. I slept around, I dated guys I shouldn't have, I got used. I allowed my ex to say things about me that I never should have. People close to me lost respect for me, and I lost respect for myself. I finally started seeing a psychiatrist and started getting on top of some of the psychological issues I've had since I was a child. I started putting myself out there, meeting new people, and hanging out with different friends every week. All of this led to a crazy, crazy, and exciting life.
The stories that I have from the past year are amazing. I was adventurous, I did crazy things, I learned about myself, I met amazing people, and I'm glad that I did the things that I did. I wanted to be able to share all of this, all of these feelings and adventures anonymously, so I created my blog Adventures of a Proud Liberal Slut in order to do that. I have learned SO much from blogging! I have learned more about myself that I ever have before, I have found a hobby that I truly truly enjoy, which has allowed me to have healthy relationships, and I have found that there are many other people out there going through the same things that I went through. If you are going through a tough time, then blogging is just one of many ways to help process everything. I just hope that my adventures help others along the way.
A couple of months ago I met a great guy and we've been dating ever since. Just last weekend he brought me flowers, took me out to dinner, and asked me to be his girlfriend. He really really is a great guy. There are wonderful guys out there, you just have to be patient enough to find them.