Every day triggers

Awhile back I wrote about gardening being a trigger for me. Sometimes I don't even know where or when my triggers are going to be.   I really don't have them EVERY day.  Triggers are different from cravings.  I don't crave, but I feel like I could really fuck up quickly by acting on a trigger. They come hard and fast.  That scares the shit out of me.  Which, is a very good thing. ...more

Remembering July 2, 1995 ~WARNING!!! Suicide mentioned~

Rewind back to July 2, 1995...I was a very troubled 22 year old girl on the brink of absolute destruction. I was abusing drugs and even worse, I didn't think there was anything wrong with it. My life was a complete mess and everyone could see it except for me. I was still reeling from a tumultuous 2 year relationship that ended with me in the emergency room and my ex boyfriend in jail. I really believed that if everyone, especially my mother, would get off my back and accept my lifestyle that things would be okay. However, my mother was unrelenting....more
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Cross Post: Hope For Tomorrow

God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. -The Serenity Prayer   Hope For Tomorrow. That sounds like the name of a soap opera....more

Women & Recovery

Hi, I'm new here and new to blogging. I am very interested in seeking fellow blog-sites that pertain to matters of women's recovery! Thanks!!!  ...more

Reach out and touch someone

I was thinking the other day, as I was feeling sort of lonely in a faraway hotel room, how in CODA recovery (and just about any other healthy self/relationship book or program you can find out there right now) there is consistent teaching that we don't have to cling to others, we can allow others to be here or not be here, we can let go, and that's the healthiest thing.  And I get that.  I honestly get it, really really I do. ...more