An Open Letter to the Universe:

HEY. Listen.I am trying really  hard down here.I am back on the pills. I am taking the damn pills. I am reengaging in my life.I am doing community theater.I dyed my hair PURPLE.I am trying to claw my way out of the dark place I have been for the last few months. I am trying so very hard that you up there must surely see; you must hear my efforts.So, that mom at the birthday party I was at this afternoon? The one that asked me when I was due?...more

AD/HD precedes symptoms of mental disorders in children

New research from Wayne State University School of Medicine indicates that attention deficits (ADD and ADHD) are central to mental disorders like schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. In fact, the attention deficits are believed to precede the manifestation of symptoms of the other illnesses....more

The Art of Bipolar

Writing has saved me. I cannot tell you how healing its medicine is, and what a release it is to be able to let go of all of these dormant, rotting thoughts left inside for far too long. I know that words have saved me before, when I was younger - back when I would relay my suicidal sufferings through stream-of-consciousness writings, or stay up all night, writing my simple poetry. Those simple poems were my simple savior. For whatever reason, writing is the form of art that forces its way through, demands to be seen, and accepts no resistance that I may put up against it....more

Excerpts From Diaries Past - Tuesday December 28, 2010

This is a series that I will add to every once-in-a-while. I will post old diary entries, modified slightly so as not to reveal me or my family's identity or exact location,etc....more

His Remains (bipolar poetry)

To Linda:...more

Emotional Clean-Sweep

Right now I'm in the process of doing something that I've once said I don't do - cleaning my house. Only, it doesn't feel like cleaning my house. It feels like cleaning my soul - making a clean-sweep of all of my emotional baggage - that I've been lugging around for several years now. ...more
roseredstories - So true! I'm trying not to do that right now too, since I'm usually always ...more

Numbed to Dead - (poetry)

NaBloPoMo December '13 - day 15...more

My Role of Rescuer - To My Drama-Addicted Family

I have been assigned the duty of rescuer, in my family. Well, I assigned myself that duty, I suppose. ...more

Tiny Diamonds...A Love Story

My husband proposed to me with the most simple, modest diamond. It was definitely not the stunner I was hoping for (or foolishly even expecting), but there was no way that I would ever have said no to that one question that would change both of our lives forever. Even though, in my egotistic pride, I have since made fun of him for that tiny diamond (since I knew he could have afforded a bigger one) - I still would never trade it - even if given the chance now....more


Sitting here with my leprosy exposed must call "unclean, unclean" Don't look at me Don't try to see the mold that is surrounding me - The sin, The sin - is all I am That's all you see I stand condemned   Sitting with my isolation Don't look my way 'cause I'm contagious The disease of me you think you see - is hidden - hiding underneath   So don't get close Just look away Invisibly I cleanse my stains I hear the words with mouths they say: "Don't look at her cause she's condemned." ...more