What it's like for her


I'm Here, I Exist

When I tell someone I have bipolar 2 disorder, the shock that comes across his or her face often takes me aback.If they know me, their shock is a tad annoying. What does me saying I have bipolar disorder change for them? What does the admission trigger in their mind about what someone with bipolar is supposed to look like, supposed to be like? How am I so different from what they expect?...more

The Other Side of Here

I wasn't stunned. When I heard the news about Robin William's passing - I wasn't stunned. I wasn't shocked or surprised like everyone else. I watched the news start rolling through my twitter and facebook feeds. I sat there, shaking my head, because I know. I just know. Robin Williams has long been one of my favorite actors. Dead Poets Society is one of my top five movies of all time. I loved the diversity in his talent. That he could play a serious role just as well as a comedic one. And even though I'm not famous I kind of get where he was coming from. ...more

Book Review: Too Fast by Alexia Haynes

Title: Too FastAuthor: Alexia HaynesCopyright date: 2013Genre: Adult Romance / EroticaSold by: Sold by:...more

For Those Who Suffer...

So many things have stirred in my mind as I watch people analyze and speculate and diagnose yet another disturbed young man who did the unthinkable. For years I have worked behind the scenes to redefine the stigma attached to mental illness, and how easily we all throw around the terms crazy and insane in defining or judging those we do not understand. I have been warned many times that by coming out or speaking publicly I will be stigmatized, hold myself up to public scrutiny or possibly be unemployable, unmarriable or shunned by society....more

What's in the Bag?

I think there's a disconnect between people knowing I have bipolar disorder and me whipping out my pillbox, which is exactly what I do after every meal I eat.A woman's purse is a mystery to men. My husband and I were married about 5 years before he ever went in there. Now he boldly goes where no man's gone before - when he really wants a piece of gum....more

When the Lights Go Out: Coping with Loss After Suicide

(edit: This post was written on my personal blog, www.anchorsaweighblog.com, on Monday, April 16, 2012.)Yesterday, a sweet friend of mine from high school passed away. I am too young for this. Too young to know what it’s like to lose so many of my friends in this life. Especially Mikey. His death could have been prevented. ...more

Let's Talk About Meds

I literally waited until I had no choice but to go on meds. And by literally, I mean a nurse in a mental hospital gave me a little white cup with Lithium and Zoloft in it and another white cup with water in it and wouldn’t let me out of her sight until I emptied both cups.Find out what misconceptions and fears about psychiatric medications almost killed me here....more

A Pill for Evil People

Seriously though, a friend of mine, or should I say former friend, called me a drug addict because I take medication for Bipolar Disorder.  It was around the time Whitney Houston died.  And I thought to myself, wow, she thinks I'm like Whitney Houston?...more
I know I'm not alone in being discriminated against and there is something to be said for that. ...more

How Sunlight Can Help Your Depression

As I live day to day I try to think of things that may help lessen the severity of my depression.  Lately I have been making a point to try to get in at least 30 minutes of sunlight every day.  I have noticed that on the days I don’t make it outside I have a harder time fighting the lies that flow from my brain....more