Being Bipolar and Being Nina Kaur

In the past I have written about being Bipolar.   Have you ever seen "Being John Malcovich?"  The reason I bring it up is that the film is very much like Manic Depression, it makes no sense, but it's beautiful and in some ways mind bogglingly profound. It was kind of hard for me to "come out" so to speak about having this disease, even though many people already knew.  I've slowly been telling people over the years.  The closet that I came out of was filled with a lot of nasty thoughts about not feeling like a worthy person, or normal or love-able....more

Don't Be the Judge

by Lianne Castelino We all do it.  It happens all the time.  It is just so wrong. Yesterday, I had the honour of meeting a family who encounters this wrong on a regular basis.  A wrong that is akin to a stake to the heart and hard slap to the face -- every single time. ...more

May is Mental Health Awareness Month

Seemingly there are not enough months in the year to go around. May is National Lupus Awareness Month, National Melanoma Awareness Month and it is also Mental Health Awareness Month. I think for many people, mental health issues are the hardest to accept. Think about all of the stigma attached to mental health. Think about it, how many times have you said - “She’s Crazy?” I’m guilty of this myself and most times we don’t have ill intent when we say such things but it truly is a derogatory term. Especially when the person that is being referred to actually has a mental health challenge. ...more

Even in the blogging community, I was hesitant to discuss my issues with depression for a long ...more

Hello Mania. It's Been Too Long.

Though one of my reasons for starting this blog was to be open and honest about my bipolar depression, I haven’t touched on that subject for quite awhile.  Mostly because I’ve been doing well. In fact, lately, I’ve been feeling great.  Super-great.  Super-super-great. So good that I’ve been “treating” myself to the $20 this-or-that several times a week. So good that I want to drink more (than usual), eat more (than usual), do everything more (than usual). ...more

Competence Compensation

Thank you. I'm glad you have slowly found the balance you need to feel your feelings for what ...more

Disease VS Condition

This is how I interpret it. Please correct me if I am wrong. I am a professional patient not a doctor.  A Disease can often be cured, but is in certain cases terminal. On the other hand a Condition is chronic, often progressive. It is not curable, but can be kept under control or the progression slowed. Sometimes it goes into remission, to perhaps reappear. Loss of life generally occurs by complications, or as an effect, of the underlying cause (the Condition). So as far as I understand both Lupus and Bipolar are Conditions. ...more

Can The Internet Save Your Life?

I've said it before and I'll say it again: the blogging community can be a lifesaving resource for new moms (and soon-to-be-moms and been-there-done-that moms and everyone in between and beyond.) That's my Internet - a community of caring peers who are always there to provided support and caring and practical help. But what about the Internet that stood by and watched a young man broadcast his suicide on YouTube? What is it that separates the nurturing Internets from the ones that scream 'jump! jump!' at a young man on a virtual ledge? ...more

So many of the blogs (generally mommy blogs, sheesh) I read deal with depression of some ...more

Mental Illness: When We Can't Make Sense of the Senseless

There is no hard and fast test for mental illness. The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV), which is the bible of the mental health field, can do no more than categorize the propensity for certain symptoms as being probably indicative of certain conditions. If the fellow down the street has at least two of the following-delusions, hallucinations, odd speech, odd behavior, or seems emotionless-chances are he may be schizophrenic. Or maybe not. ...more

Depression and Major Depression

Many people will be surprised when they find out that I have suffered major depression for most of my life.  Although there are many types of depression, they are usually distinguished between depression and major depression. ...more

Fear and Self-Loathing

Hi. My name is Rebekah and I’m an alco- well, I might be an – okay, the Alcoholics Anonymous website quiz indicates that I have a drinking problem. That is to say, I have no problem drinking. A lot. ...more

I read your whole post, and I think, 'man, she can write', ...more