To the Brink and Back

The “D” word.I said the “D” word.Disruption. Despite my reservations, I let E go down for a week and a half-long visit with Bmom and his bio siblings. I couldn’t come up with a better reason for him not to go than “I don’t think it’s a good idea,” and couldn’t explain beyond that, so I caved. Next time I’ll know better, but you know what they say about hindsight. ...more

Three Ways to Use Disruption

I finally moved into my new place last weekend. It was exciting. And frustrating. And exhausting.Everything a move should be, right?My husband and I deluded ourselves into thinking that this move was going to be easy, and that made it all the worse. Thanks to his job, we had movers to do the heavy lifting and to pack/unpack all the boxes. It was going to be so awesome. And then it wasn't....more

48 hours later...

48 hours since we received The News. Somehow I make it through yesterday, although I can't say that the day is particularly productive. Last evening we meet my MIL and her hubby for dinner out at a favorite Thai place. Chris is running late so I go in by myself. My MIL hugs me really tight. I say to her, "You cannot start crying. No crying." "Nope. No crying," she says into my shoulder, still holding me tight. ...more

Thank you. I so appreciate your kind words and good wishes, Benita.more


24 hours ago my husband races up the stairs to fling open the bathroom door eyes looking a little wild. I'm standing there in a towel having just stepped out of the shower. He asks in a husky, shaking voice, "Have you seen the e-mail from T [our adoption rep]?" No. I haven't. "L changed her mind and she's decided to keep the baby." We hurry to the living room and my laptop so that I can see T's words for myself. And there they are "...unfortunately..."  "...bad news...." "...disappointment..." " sorry..." ...more

And I'll give you a heck yes about the kindness when you are just trying to hold it all ...more

An Unimaginable Decision

Can loving your child ever mean letting him go? ...more

I love your last point: It is so easy to compare stories such as Tedaldi’s with our own ...more