My Emotionally Abusive Childhood: Get the Hell Over it, Right?

I have wanted to write about my past for a few years now.  But only for the last few years and never having the courage to do so.  This despite so many therapists telling me how cathartic a process it would be for me.  I’m in my middle 40’s now and have been getting this same advice since I first broke apart in 1995.  I simply never saw the point in writing down all the ugliness.  Instead, I let it bang around in my brain for the better part of the last 20 years, slowly making me sicker and sicker.  Now it’s time for a release.  I’m writing some down and I...more

Art Therapy

Therapy comes in all shapes, sizes, and colors.  For some the best therapy comes from sitting down with a licensed therapist, but others prefer more unconventional methods such as cooking, exercise, dance, yoga, etc.  ...more

Sponsoring My Own Growth

I started this blog years ago with the intention of writing about things that mattered to me. I had intended to write about my son. I wanted to get things off my chest regarding my turbulent marriage. I needed to talk about my mom's dementia. I thought I would be writing about the looming empty nest that I knew was coming back in 2013. As it turns out, the nest would be completely empty....more

Could he be bipolar or is he just a jerk who's an emotional abuser?

 I was going to file for divorce in the summer of 2009...more
my own experience.... he wont change his attitude..... no matter what you do....more

I've never actually wished death on someone before...

I've never come right out and said, "I wish he would die" before, but for the first time yesterday I said it would be better if he did... or if any of the three did. ...more

Is my spouse verbally abusive or controlling? I've reached the end of my rope.

After this weekend I decided it might help me if I started sharing the things my other half says to me that I question whether or not are abusive and/or controlling.  It’s really hard because he does have some good qualities and I tend, at times, to let those overshadow what I suspect are the not-so-good qualities.  I’m made to think that these things happen because of me.  In fact, I’ve been told “if you would just listen to what I tell you” or “if you would do what I tell you” or (and this one makes the hair stand up on the back of my neck) “if you wouldn’t talk back all th...more
Your story is so much like mine. If you look up "narcissistic" in the dictionary , you have my ...more

Blah, Blah, Blah

There's two sides to every story...This is mine ...more

Dear Mom: I Still Can't Call You On Mother's Day....or any day

Truths from the ChaosDear Mom, I wanted to call you for Mother’s Day. I think I look forward to the day I can call you again. (Progress.) I must admit, I wish it didn’t bother me so to think about you being asked the question, “Did you talk to your kids yesterday?” I don’t like knowing you are in such an uncomfortable situation....more
 @gab15th *smiling* This process is certainly bitter sweet.  I feel the growth happening through ...more

The Right Fit

There's two sides to every story...This is mine...more