Just Start Walking

There is freedom in clearing some space to feel. All you have to do is open up a little - drop the barriers - and the feelings flow right in. The mind starts racing, and in desperation works to put them back up to block to the feelings that have just assaulted you. The feelings are too much, but they need to be felt to get unstuck. As heavy as they are, the barriers are easier to carry - they are more familiar, even if they are self-destructive...it’s insidious. Until the day you begin to see it all as a distraction from the pain you have sought to avoid or the feelings you have sought to escape – the emptiness, the past, the longing, the loneliness. Bravely, you brace yourself, clear the space and let it all in. This is freedom. This is power. That day will come....more

When Is The Best Time to Change? (Hint: Sooner Than You Think)

I woke up this morning reflecting about change. Through looking at my life in retrospect, I can think of two ways in which change has come about: either 1) as a result of a crisis, or 2) as a conscious decision....more

Getting back to great

Just completed a 4.02 mi run - One time for another great run. YEEEEAAAAHHHHH. #running #templebuilding http://t.co/qt4yzGiK7R #RunKeeper...more

3. My family joins me on the journey.

*I am moving my blog here from Google, I originally wrote this post on August 25, 2012*...more

Don’t Feel Sorry for Me. The Wounded Little Girl in Me is Healing

Truths from the Chaos...more
@TruthsfromtheChaos Tears are coming to my eyes because the pain you feel is felt as it flows ...more

Contemplations on Healing

“A pearl is a beautiful thing that is produced by an injured life. It is the tear…from… injury of the oyster. The treasure of our being in this world is also produced by an injured life. If we had not been wounded, if we had not been injured, then we will not produce the pearl.” Stephan Hoeller“The gem cannot be polished without friction, nor man perfected without trials.” Chinese proverbHow does one lighten the heart, ease the mind and comfort one’s soul after the damage done by tragedy?...more

It Depends On The Day

   On a Bad Day  When I look in the mirrorI seeugly I see hair that should not be so greythat easily adds ten yearsto my age I see a face that revealsyears of endurance and paindark circles from insomniaand being up with childrennight after night after night I see a bodythat by any Western standard...more

Healing Self Hatred...a Vital First Step

I've always had a passion for finding the good in someone, zeroing into it, celebrating it, valuing that individual, either from afar or more directly to them in words or deeds. This just has kinda always been a trait of mine. My uncle actually used to giggle when I'd write a note to him on a birthday card. "Tre always makes me feel so much better than I really am." I used to laugh when he'd say that....more