The One Where I Lie to My Friends

I have a confession to make... a friend is moving back to the US and even though I pretend to be sad about it, I am actually happy she's going! I feel terrible for feeling this way, but I can't help myself. It's amazingly selfish and if any of my friends in real life knew they would be very upset with me. They would be horrified that I could think such a horrible thing about someone I call my friend. It would probably change their view of me completely. So I hide it. I keep it to myself and pray that no one discovers my dark secret. So what is this friend's crime?? What has she done to make me so happy that she's moving so far away? Three wordsHER BABY LIVED...more
I am not exactly in your situation...the only time I was lucky enough to have been pregnant was ...more

SAHM: My 4-Letter Word

  I don’t tell people I’m a Stay At Home Mom (SAHM in the online world), because I don’t think that I am. People ask what I’ll be doing when we move to India, and I feel confused. Obviously I’ll be “doing” Ennis....more

Guilt about the Royal Wedding and Motherhood

(If you would like to see the photos that go with this post, click on my blog "A Rolling Crone" or on Eleni's-- "The Liminal Stage.") Daughter Eleni, who studied Folk Lore and Mythology at Harvard, recently launched her blog “The Liminal Stage”. (As she explains: “Liminal stages are psychological thresholds, times of transition when we stand ‘betwixt and between’ one state and another. The biggies are birth, marriage, death.”) ...more

Family and Career Travel

When I first started travelling for my job it was so exciting. I found this excellent place to work in the heart of the "Silicorn Valley" (ie: Iowa) at a technology/software company. It was like a diamond in the rough. A salary unmatched in our area, the opportunity to work with the Fortune 500 and really dive into Corporate America without the hustle and bustle of the city (though I do miss my city!).Then I had children. I remember my first trip after my son Isaiah was born. As excited as I was to actually sleep through the night, how was I going to leave my baby?...more

I continue to forge a new path, but it's a lonely process . . .

 I continue to forge a new path, but it's a lonely process . ....more

Giveaway and Review: A Cowboy's Touch by Denise Hunter

What emotion is strong enough to affect our physical bodies, sabotage relationships, warp life purposes, and alter personalities?...more

Screw You Mercury!

It seems like I'm on a roll this week. First I was feeling remorse for wanting to chase after my dreams in fear that my children will resent me, or at the least give me sad eyes. Now I'm being afflicted with another age old dilemma-- daughter guilt. ...more

Got Guilt?

According to Wikipedia, guilt is when a person believes (accurately or not) that she has violated a moral standard, and bears significant responsibility for that violation. It can lead to feelings of inferiority, inadequacy, hopelessness, and martyrdom. ...more

Unwanted Thoughts

More and more is being learned about autism. There are so many different theories. Different people have different ideas as to what's the best thing to do about reducing risks and treating those already affected. Sometimes these are based on falsified data (i.e. coming from Andrew Wakefield's study). Other times, the studies are valid, but inconclusive. Even when there are some clear results to base theories on, people can't seem to agree. Sometimes these make sense....more

Breastfeeding, SIDS & Guilt - At what cost? Many parents are surprised to learn that not breastfeeding has been linked with increased rates of SIDS.  Despite it's importance, it is often never mentioned at antenatal classes or by Health Professionals; so one day I decided to ask one why. ...more