A Beloved Pet Lost & Found: Whew!

I don’t sleep well.This has been true for a long time. Part of it is a pattern from nights interupted by the waking up with babies and small children over the past 25 years of raising my large family of 8 kids. Even though the youngest is now 6 years old, several of the kids are chronically ill, and one is dying. This means also lots of medical bills.Reasons to lose sleep, as you can imagine....more

How To Treat Insomnia Naturally

We’ve all been there. You go to bed right on time, knowing the alarm will jar you awake 8 hours later. You’ve got a big presentation in the morning. Or your grad school interview is the next day. Or you just know the baby will be waking you soon. So it’s critical that you fall asleep - now....more

Nocturnal TV Viewing

The worse thing about insomnia is that you can’t sleep.  And when you can’t sleep and everyone else in the house can, you have few options.  Clunk around and annoy them into joining your insomniac activities or doing something sedentary.  Groggy, frustrated over not sleeping sedentary wins over clunking. As husband cannot sleep with my reading light on, but can sleep if I have the TV on, TV wins.  It must have been about 3:00 am.  I am not exactly entranced by balding men, weight loss or get rich quick schemes, I don't want to buy jewelry so I am left w...more

My first nightmare...

It shouldn't be surprising to most that I haven't been sleeping well since this high FSH drama first started on February 18. I suffer from insomnia off and on, but this round has been worse than usual. Usually I struggle with falling asleep but am fine once I finally conk out. Now I have both - problems falling asleep and problems waking up during the night. A lot. I have spent so many night tossing and turning, trying to medicate or meditate myself to sleep. Trying to still my racing mind and slow my pounding heartbeat....more

The Duel Between Sleep and the Creative Flow

It’s futile. The Gushing Creative Flow always wins.Why is it that I’m practically falling asleep at my desk during the day, hit ‘create new blog post’ and stare blankly at the screen, or pull out a new art canvas and draw a blank, but at 4am I wake up with all kinds of creative thoughts that I just can’t turn off?I’m like an innocent bystander while I witness the dual between sleep, begging for mercy, and Creation, begging for her outlet.Sleep says, ...more

Homeschool Rookie: If I screamed would anyone listen?

My best friend bought me a luxurious eye pillow.  I mean it was a gift in season.  I'm 32wks pregnant and everyone knows that at 32wks pregnancy=insomnia.  Not only am I pregnant, I'm pregnant with twins.  I must stress this so that you can understand why my eye pillow is so precious.  It is filled with leaves of lavender which emit a calming scent while its satiny exterior provides comfort and coolness to the eye area.  There are extra satin folds which cusion the eyes while the mask is worn....and let's not forget the comfy band that holds it securely in plac...more

5HTP, Yeah You Know Me!

 My friend Norman said to me today "I know you have ADD but try and focus" but I couldn't focus because I was trying to figure why my coffee was taking so long. You see coffee is very important for the person with ADD. We are  trying to simulate ADD medicine when we drink it. This is something I recently heard of but when it was explained it made perfect sense. ...more

(VIDEO) How to Choose a New Mattress and Get Some Sleep

There's only one thing that I hate more than shopping for a new car, and that's shopping for a new mattress. Which explains why TW and I slept on a (cheap) IKEA futon for 18 months after her mom moved in and took over our bed. I wasn't worried about our mattress shopping excursion turning into a Monty Python skit but ... well maybe I was. ...more

Hi everyone,

I didn't realize until my first daughter was about 2 years old that many ...more

Are You Suffering from Postpartum Depression? How Would You Know?

Postpartum depression is an interesting thing. I have up days and down days. And I have ups and downs and ups and downs mixed into one day. Sometimes I can’t tell if I am down because of PPD or because of the stress of Wee Nut’s Heart Defect. I have come to believe that  I would have gotten to a point when things settled down after Owee’s second surgery, that I would have ended up depressed anyways. And that my pregnancy with She Nut just postponed the inevitable....more

My experiences with Anxiety

Bedtimes have never been easy for me. My Mom always says that since childhood I have "always had a hard time letting the day go". I was a really creative, energetic kid. I loved making art projects, building things, reading books and playing imaginary games. There was always so much stuff I wanted to do. I never wanted to go to bed. If there was more of the day left I wanted to keep experiencing it. Also, I was a bit afraid of sleep. What scared me most was the idea that I was losing control of my body, that it was slipping into the unknown, an unconscious state. I blame part of this fear on Catholicism. "If I should die before I wake"--although my family wasn't really religious, that prayer always scared the crap out of me. A lot of nights I would lie awake in bed fearing that moment of letting go. I'd figure out a million reasons to get up out of bed: another glass of water, another 5 trips to the bathroom, did I remember to brush my teeth? These behaviors just increased my anxiety. I'd start to worry that I hadn't fallen asleep yet and that I'd be tired for school in the morning. Because of my nocturnal activities I'd often wake up with puffiness and little dark circles under my eyes. I was deeply ashamed of my puffy eyes (which seemed way worse to me as a 7 or 8 year old than they probably ever were) because I felt like all the other kids could read on my face that there was something wrong with me, that I wasn't normal, that I didn't get as much sleep as a kid my age should. Worst of all I felt like my behavior was out of my control....more