An Open Letter To The Mom I Loved And Lost

Mom. The word almost feels foreign rolling off my tongue. I never knew you and I never will. That’s what hurts the most. There’s always been a void waiting to be filled along with the lingering question: “What would life be like WITH you?” ...more

Vulnerability, Invincibility, and Driving by Cemeteries

Driving by cemeteries hurts.I've always noticed them. I recognize them as sacred places and believe they deserve reverence. Yet, they never really affected me. Or at least no anything like they do now.It's not just that I feel cemeteries' sacred-ness and level of reverence. No, it's physical. I can physically feel cemeteries now.The physical reaction I have alone can bring me to tears. I (almost) always hold them back. But the sensation can last upwards of 15 minutes....more

Mother's Day When Your Mom Has Passed

It’s that time of year. Sigh. I have an idea brewing to address this time of year, and it goes a little something like this:...more

When Tragedy Strikes

My children's friend died yesterday in a tragic backyard accident. Her little brother got struck by the same falling tree, but he will be alright. He does have three broken ribs and bruises, but he is going to come out strong. We went to Children's Hospital today to see him and the family....more

When Your Child's Friend Dies

Tonight we received the tragic news of a sweet angel's passing. She was one of our children's best friend from church and Adventurers. Her mom is the director of our Adventurer Club.The daughter was eight and was going to be baptized next month. She sang for Special Music in church. She had a glow about her of innocence and purity....more

Goodbye Grief

 It only hurts because you love it. The feelings might subside but will it ever release you completely? Have you heard the sound of a wailing child who has lost his favourite toy in the shopping mall? Or seen the quiet tears ...more
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What Cancer Weakened, Greed Destroyed

It has been just over a year since my Grandfather, and shortly thereafter my Grandmother, passed away. In the wake of their deaths we have suffered a fracture to our family that can only be described as irreparable. What was said and done can never be repaired and time may heal all wounds but it cannot remove the salt....more

Mother's Keeping It Real

Mother's Day is experienced by many people not through the words 'happy' and for many mother's the experience of motherhood is not filled with joy.  This Mother's Day I acknowledge the human being who is mother.  Click here to visit this post ...more

You Can. You Will.

In the past, when I have had heart to hearts with friends, we have discussed horrible situations we have heard that people are in, and I have heard my friends say, "I can't even imagine. I don't think I could survive something that devastating. I don't know how they are dealing with it."It is said with such heartfelt empathy and good intentions. In the past I have nodded and agreed. "I know, I think I would just give up. They are so strong, I don't know if I could ever be that strong."...more

MM - Mixed emotions

December and the accompanying holiday season has been a time of joy and sadness for me since 2001. That year, within a two week span, I lost my maternal grandmother and my father. Some years it hits me hard, and it's a struggle to maintain a cheerful front for the family. Some years, I get a twinge and a wistful desire they were both here to see what amazing people our kidlets have become. While I don't doubt they are still watching over us (the subject for future blog entries), it's still not the same.Miss you Nana. Miss you Dad....more