Mother's Keeping It Real

Mother's Day is experienced by many people not through the words 'happy' and for many mother's the experience of motherhood is not filled with joy.  This Mother's Day I acknowledge the human being who is mother.  Click here to visit this post ...more

You Can. You Will.

In the past, when I have had heart to hearts with friends, we have discussed horrible situations we have heard that people are in, and I have heard my friends say, "I can't even imagine. I don't think I could survive something that devastating. I don't know how they are dealing with it."It is said with such heartfelt empathy and good intentions. In the past I have nodded and agreed. "I know, I think I would just give up. They are so strong, I don't know if I could ever be that strong."...more

MM - Mixed emotions

December and the accompanying holiday season has been a time of joy and sadness for me since 2001. That year, within a two week span, I lost my maternal grandmother and my father. Some years it hits me hard, and it's a struggle to maintain a cheerful front for the family. Some years, I get a twinge and a wistful desire they were both here to see what amazing people our kidlets have become. While I don't doubt they are still watching over us (the subject for future blog entries), it's still not the same.Miss you Nana. Miss you Dad....more

Love Me Don’t Leave Me – A Book Review and My “Story” Part One

So. A few months ago, suddenly Susan, I was asked if I would review a book about overcoming childhood abandonment issues to build lasting, loving relationships by Michelle Skeen, PsyD disconcertingly named: “Love Me Don’t Leave Me”. Honestly, I do understand the value of a catchy title but this one had me picturing myself blurting out those words as my first date got up to go to the washroom. Never to return. I’ve not yet had the urge but then I’ve only been online for a couple of years. ONLY....more

Our journey of One

Everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms—to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances,to choose one’s own way.Viktor E. Frankl, Man's Search for Meaning ...more

Zelda Williams, I Lost My Dad to Suicide, Too

“I love you. I miss you. I’ll try to keep looking up.” Sitting at my desk at work, I read the words on my computer from Zelda, Robin Williams’ daughter,  who tweeted about his death. For some reason I decided to look at the clock, I wanted to know what time it was... 8:38 AM. I lasted a little over 12 hours after hearing the news before it finally hit me. The night before, Trey had given me a hug and asked if I was okay. I said yes, which was true at the time but now it was different. Now I was not okay. “I love you. I miss you. I’ll try to keep looking up.” ...more
Thank you for writing and sharing this post.  Undiagnosed mental health problems plague families ...more

Grieving the loss of a pet: Remembering Henry

I often take the “ostrich approach” to fear and grief. Sometimes, burying my head in the sand and pretending nothing is wrong makes me feel better. This isn’t one of my best traits....more

Too much loss

I know, I’ve hardly been here this past month. I don’t even know where to begin. The start of 2014 or even the end of 2013 wasn’t how I planned it to end or begin. Levi and I sat down and talked the other night about me kinda shutting off everything thats been happening. Thats my down fall I bottle things up. Ive kept my resolution about trying harder with my friendships and have been “bugging” people to hangout but I haven’t been completely there for my home life or myself....more

Life can be funny sometimes … especially when there's nothing to laugh about

 A beautiful calm sunny day ...more